"plak!";
x 9:52 pm
hey hey you you
i probably would very much love to have you as my girlfriend..we live 2 blocks away and that should make sending each other home an easy task. hahahahahha
"plak!";
x 10:32 pm
since enlistment,i've not felt any useful until today
my boss praised me to the skies today, in front of another officer, while signing my off pass granted for an interview at ntu english lit.
some rough excerpts:
"an arts student; hence his command of english is very firm and powerful"
"he surely can help construct well-crafted sentences for your most important letters, very beautiful language"
"he is of higher quality,very educated,compared to the other people awaiting revocation"
"very hardworking, diligent, doesn't play MC stunts, go on AWOL or other nonsense, very well-behaved"
"he will be a very reliable clerk for you"
i've never been so flattered and embarrassed, seriously. i kinda laughed there. really is quite hilarious.
"plak!";
x 10:37 pm
crashed..
my comp keeps restarting. early on the workaround was to use system restore to rejuvenate it back to an earlier stage, but now the 'next' button refuses to do anything when clicked upon and so there's no way to go online now. the problem was that my bios was corrupted and holy! had to be removed. usually components will automatically detect themselves and install on a computer..which didn't happen, which is why i'll not be going online until i plough more days into fixing it or burn my pocket and get someone to do it.
but k damn i'm being referred to medical board. got c9l2. which means im going back to tekong one of these days. oh damn......and with my back and leg pain especially i have to go outfield. still trying my best to downgrade further with no end in sight. excused heavy loads 3 months excused boots 1 month from the MO. joy. and envy to everyone else.
"plak!";
x 1:08 pm
on a sunday afternoon
i spend 3 hours looking for a solution to solve my msn messenger.
i finally find it, and spend thirty minutes working on it.
along the way i found a couple of tweaks i could use.
i restart my comp.
it never got to windows, and kept crashing continuously.
i booted my windows from the disc.
i had to visit a restore point to go back to windows.
the thirty minutes spent on solving the issue, i've to spend it again.
now i hope the process doesn't repeat itself ever again. afterall, that's not the point of warm annoying sunday afternoons. its not helping matters. i know i can fix my computer problems but don't do this to me its far too cruel! for now, that my comp is back to sanity i fear the next time i restart my comp.
"plak!";
x 4:48 pm
From Pes A to D to B to E. why can't they just give me F?
1 year ago on may day i got attached to the girl of my dreams. i never regretted loving you though its been months since you broke up with me. it really struck me when xie zheng told me of his breakup not too long ago. i could almost feel my tears welling up for him and myself. i was officially down and out for 2 months, and could never fully get over it for all the months that've passed so far, all for a relationship that lasted close to 7 months.
his was 3 years. i really don't know how to console him. i already feel like a miserable bloke, i'm sure he feels much worse than me..why must life be like this. now i see in him, myself half a year ago. really strickens me. i really can't bear to see him go on like this..
well there's bad news for me, because i went for my orthopaedic appointment, and its true, there is a L4/5 disc protrusion(lower back) afterall. i went back to my office, and everyone was celebrating for me and wailing "Pes E" already. asked me to give them a treat, breakfast, lunch and dinner. what the hell..i took it like a personal tragedy la, while they were so happy for me, probably i am gonna have the coveted Pes E which they've been trying but could never reach...u know like a HOLY GRAIL of all PES statii(radius: radii ; status:statii lollll)! the doc didn't even explain the possible treatments...he stopped me from inquiring because its too risky. so until my condition worsens to a terminal stage, i only have physiotherapy, and painkillers to numb my pain. although i have not noticed any benefits from physiotherapy but don't mind cos its time off from office. painkillers. they take away the physical pain. but i'm always hoping for one which removes the sensation from your emotions. so that it doesn't hurt inside. just because whatever hurts inside is way too much to even make you oblivious to the real-world pain you feel. but we are so mortal, so vulnerable to the forces within. really, what's the point of it all?
This song has been activated on infinite loop in my head ever since that day. there's always a song for everyone.
Blurry
Everythings so blurry
And everyones so fake
And everybodys so empty
And everything is so messed up
Pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that Ill protect you
From all of the obscene
I wonder what your doing
Imagine where you are
Theres oceans in between us
But thats not very far
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When ya shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When ya shoved it my face
Everyone is changing
Theres noone left thats real
To make up your own ending
And let me know just how you feel
Cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I will save you
From all of the unclean
I wonder what your doing
I wonder where you are
Theres oceans in between us
But thats not very far
[chorus]
Nobody told me what you thought
Nobody told me what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Told you where to runaway
Nobody told you where to hide
Nobody told you what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Showed you where to runaway
[chorus]
This pain you gave to me
You take it all
You take it all away...
This pain you gave to me
You take it all away
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me
"plak!";
x 9:19 pm