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"yea yea! best friends forever" you said.

before we got attached, we agreed no mattter what happened, best friends we shall be forever.

indeed something happened, and a couple no longer we were.

however, i forgave you on the condition that we kept the promise, that we'd still be best friends.

you agreed, hastily. i was happy that i could finally give a damn about a person in my life in the long run.

more than a month later, you said you no longer wanted me as a best friend.

u cannot imagine how much i have gone through..its simply beyond the grasp of any human..this and that..everything altogether..you claim that i have broken your trust, but do you know how many obstacles that i had to fight against that would have prevented it from being broken? i bet you never knew. you only cared when u thought it was broken. and now you just want to be my good friend. haha. some things, i am very particular about. i saw this coming anyway. its so easy to break it down. 1.tell him we remain as best friends so that he can break up with me. 2. stay as best friends for the moment so that he can be alright. 3. drift away from him so that he'd never have designs on me again..yay!!happily ever after.

-no. i thought, let's remain as best friends since it'd be such a waste to dispose of it just cos a relatonship failed. maybe u thought so too. but no way, i wun have feelings for you again. i just want a pure friendship. even if u treat me like a good friend as u say, i will also treat you like my best friend still. i hope that the names really don't matter much as u told me so. and even if u really treat me like a good friend. i hope u realise that personally, good friends are closer to best friends than any other group. so there you go. i've always let you make up your mind that i have no say. BUT WHY CAN'T I HAVE IT MY WAY, JUST ONCE? FOR THIS VERY ONCE? A BEST FRIEND, IS THAT HARD TO KEEP?

i really really need you. second time in the week, my tears are welling again..

flashback..
"I also want to always be ur best friend FOREVER, but u dun wanna give me a chance."
i gave you this chance cos i managed to break out of my misery and not hate you, but to forgive you and let you have a chance at making up for everything because you are my best friend" note. 5 mins ago before this message she just put down the phone to tell me she wanna break up. can u imagine how much it took for me to agree to this? and i took it as seriously as the break up.

you agreed to walk me out of the darkness, but seriously, you were rarely there with me, and i'm still not out of it. it hurts the most because i know how you think, yet i am helpless to change the situation. you were always the one who dictated the way things turned out. even now. you agreed that nothing much changes as much as u could try to..i really believed in you. i have never trusted anyone this much. i have never cared for anyone this much. i really hope i can continue to do so for you. its the only way for me to get out of this deep shit afterall. of course, i have another way. but far more risky. but if i have no choice i will do it. i can't be in this shit when im enlisted, non? something has to be done.

maybe i'm over-reacting. but only you, hong zhi, would know. yea. best friend.

"plak!";
x 12:06 am

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