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enjoying my mapling days(what a misleading heading =P)

going to gym with jian qi nowadays..i can see he's really quite into it, and i'm accompanying him. i'm making do for the loss of muscles potentially gained from entering in dec/jan, so that's why. and i haven't exercised for a hell long time. my legs hurt running on the treadmill, but luckily, have no problems for a good part of those stations. i should go run soon. i haven't done that yet. but i know i'm cutting down my weight fast, if im not wrong, the 2x2 sessions i had so far have cut down 2.5 kg? and i didn't even sweat much(that i didn't bother changing my shirt even :X) seriously ppl on benchpresses are either rude or buay zhi tong. they do stuff like put their towels on it and go elsewhere doing some other funny stuff, or put on the heaviest weights they can find on both sides so that noobs like us never get a chance. seriously! what the hell's that for? and about the rude part, try it, and you'll know! (though if you're lucky, you get a great bunch of ppl giving tips and encouragement,of course) assuming we really go 4 times a week..well...i should be looking as full of 'MUS-KLES'(quoth si min aha) as chee wei looks now. i feel a certain sense of envy, knowing that my life will finally be in place with army..same as school provided structure and things to think about instead of what i'm doing now, which is deciding when to fire the grenade launcher or deciding where to infiltrate or which server to join...life is such a bore nowadays!! can the schools or tuition agency call me and give me something to do? i dun care about money!! just wanna do something constructive, feel like i'm a part of the economy other than through consumption expenditure, to while my time away on useful stuff in which i really learn things...ahhhh.....and i remember that i promised to go out with lots of ppl but have yet to do so :(

everyone in life is special. haha. even ur enemies. you might even admire them at times too. everyone is beautiful, too. but reality strikes and suddenly the world doesn't feel right. oh well, but i believe in superheroes. u might not be superwoman, but you just provided whichever i needed so badly. i am so so happy to be with you as always. last year, i finally believed that friendship is forever. i might be anti-social, but it feels so good to have that few friends to always talk to, and express concern for. friends like you give me direction in an otherwise meaningless journey. so grateful for everything i have. as hz said, i shouldn't always think im so downtrodden cos she dumped me. there are other ppl living far worse existences than me. think of those terminally ill, without friends, family, love and hope...i still have friends around me who care..something i didn't really have in cat high. finally, we're all going to be adults..young adults..i am beginning to convince myself that its exciting to enter that stage at last..

to dear dirty little dumb girl:

i knew you could read my mind! haha..so could i. u knew, and so did i know that you did. no wonder we can be such best friends eh? i know we'll be fine, but i dun regret, cos i can finally feel at ease. no longer have to hide :) 6 hours talktime sometime soon? hehe..

and the lesson i learnt today, names such as best friends or good friends or whatever fanciful name they come in, they don't matter. as long as friendship is true, is all-loving, is kind. as long as you yourself know what kind of friend they mean to you, vice versa. that's all it'll need. close friends. afterall, there's a thin line between names as such. and a final confession:i love everyone around me. i know i don't look like it and do things to not prove it, but i do love everyone. even those who've hurt me before. everyone is unique. once gone, they'll never return.(im sorry if i sound like a christian, but im sorry that im not and i dun think u can categorise values according to christian, confucian, etc..yeah u get the drift)

never definites, only possibilities. all of them in my mind at anyone time.

"plak!";
x 11:48 pm

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