"plak!";
x 9:18 pm
im glad to have such a best friend :)
wah everyone talk about imf i also wanna talk about it! had a first-hand experience with my best friend si min about the situation in suntec(there was not much of people there for any situation to occur actually)
alright, i'm so disgusted with the entire imf/world bank buzz..
1.the 4 million smiles campaign is so fake. shame to those who initiated it. haha "we're smiling so we're friendly and welcoming you" and i still dun get what's the point of it! instead foreigners might be inclined to think that we smile only because some organisation asked us to. meaning we are presented as the really cold citizens that we are occasionally accused of being. i'm sure everyone knows my point though i dun know what i'm saying.
2. flowerisation of the town areas. okay, its cool to have orchard road and further down to be filled with vibrant colours, such as yellow, purple, red. alright nice. but being chinese, i could immediately recognise the flowers. chrysanthemums. while its the white ones that give it a bad name for its ill association, but still, i wouldn't want chrysanthemums to be the flowers to welcome visitors. and i think its not a tropical genus anyway. si min mentioned about the plucking of sunflowers near suntec. sad to say i never got to see any of them. did see a few imitation chrysanthemums with bigger heads though. as a geog student, i have detected visible patterns:
i) the heads of the flowers get smaller with increasing distance from the suntec area
ii)the level of flowers wilting increases increasingly with distance from the suntec area
iii)(associated) the level of flowers being watered is restricted to only the immediate concerned area
must be because they got no sun so they got smaller and wilted lor. simple right.
3.the huge commercialisation and projected economic returns. right from the start i didn't think that the retailers at suntec would benefit from delegates' expenditures. dun think they were here for a spending spree anyway. they're here on serious business aye. so when i went in to suntec(wow lolz at the femur-snapping journey into the fenced compound and then really to suntec) there weren't many shoppers. i think its like 5% commuter traffic of the usual. si min was proclaiming "hail us". contemplated going in to the shops to make the depressed sales assistant happy and make them SMILE to us. yup. i estimate quite some losses for all shops. wonder how many delegates actually noticed there was a 15% discount for them. i wouldn't have mind loosening my pocket if there were some discounts to go along for the local populace actually..but there weren't that many. i felt like a tourist in my own nation. dun know why.
damn i'm so irritating and so whiney. omg. what if i get arrested? haha. once again, we went out. si min saw tonnes of primary school friends. of course, they weren't updated, so they were staring at me. as a result of their curiosity, i was to become her "special friend". haha..nope i am not her SPECIAL FRIEND . i'm her best friend yay. someone else is the special friend. we saw this half-cool-looking dude, another primary school friend. "erm, did u notice if he had a centre parting?" oh well..i'm mean but he did really have a centre parting and i was laughing at him for that..EVIL. saw tze jung. like, wow. didn't expect to see him. first thing he said was the special friend thing again. but nah, we're both attached. to different partners anyway. it can be hard to persuade them that 'no it isn't!' but anyway sometimes u just let them be. ooh, and i saw her class at heerens too. sort of sporty looking for quite a number. reminds me of 3405/3605 with their overwhelming female majorities. we both 'levelled up' a lot, especially with our sharing of experiences of our r/s'es, haha. went to carl's jr. we ordered and they gave us the tagcards, so they'll deliver the burgers later. mine wasn't supposed to have any greens. but when it came, we both happily ate them, not knowing the burgers were swapped..so yup..it was so funny to be eating each other's burger..but we exchanged our burgers back eventually.and i was wondering why it resembled the crunchiness of a whopper, while it was supposed to have been a meaty affair..i downed 4 or 5 cups of fnn grape there..medium cups...nice..the whole meal was worth it. medium sized fries were a little larger than large fries at other fastfood joints. def more value for money than mos. really loved the soft drink. free flow at suntec. true enough, i didn't have breakfast today. its really woah. so glad i'm not one of those f** americans who patronise it..we counted the ppl having their dinners there were rather (tough=)taf=u know what..haha...evil us go on laughing at that. again, its a meaningful never-ending chatting session of 6 hours. we've never talked any lesser everytime we meet. its really enjoyable. thanks for being someone who understands me so well, si min!
compared to our class lunch before meeting up with si min, i was so different, i admit. class lunch , though it had never taken place for some time between guys and girls was rather a dread. maybe it was the post-prelim feeling. but i know, i'll be truthful, i dun think much of the class is gonna be together much after graduation. with the guys assuming i only have hong zhi in my life, i dun think they'll wanna meet up with me after that. the girls dun seem the going-out type, i'm sorry, so i'll probably be having fun reading books in the national library after everything is over. i'm prepared to lose touch with most ppl in class already. thing is, i dun really care. that's me, my attitude. i see things from a cost-benefit perspective, something similar to the way autistic ppl think according to si min. there are no costs, but i see no benefits out of long term friendship with anyone in class. not material, but true friendship, or any friendship worth sustaining. perhaps its sad that we had to be classmates. i'm really sad that we had to be. i feel we get to see the worst of each other. if u think we get to see the good in each other in class, go bang ur head against the wall. i'm suddenly feeling it. the depressing feeling. where i'll just be honest about anything now, so forgive me.i'm not in the position to judge, but i've seen enough to be feeling irked about everything i see in college. people, the structure. everything. it doesn't need a caps for that. its just everything. the only good thing about jc is the pressure-cooker system. yea, and the only good thing about aj is that i got my gf there. hah. and she isn't even in it now. but apart from this joke, the only good things i see? some teachers in aj. most of those who teach me. i'm really glad for them. they have made it a positive experience for me.i'll remember them. but no one else will i remember. nor do i care to. i do not care if everyone forgot about me; i would be happier that way. i'm still the same. hard to get along. antisocial. queer. only recently did i think aj isn't as good a college, but well, where else could be better? so aj still is a home for me. a distant one.
SCORN.
"plak!";
x 1:40 pm
sprightly dusset
THERE. i did it. my own picture, with guess what? NO SMILES!
typical me.
its fun though. come, submit your very own nosmiles2006 now! you stand to win a frowning elmo!(oh bullshit dun u realise they've got only less than 0.01% of 4 million smiles?)
got scratched by a kitten whom i found wandering along the corridor(10th floor for goodness sake). some guy must have brought the poor fellow up. or maybe it took the lift. i wanted to put it in the lift so that it'll go back to the 1st floor. but when the door closed, it skittered up the 11th. when i came back at night, it was still hiding in my flower pot. again i had the same intention. but it didn't. scratched me and ran off to the 9th floor o_O. poor kitty, could see it was starving for an entire day, and i could hear its mum meowing below..and it didn't know where to go..oh well..not such a bad scar but at least i tried to help it.
first day of exams. same feeling. everything feels so right. yet when u get it back, its gonna make you feel another. but this time, it should be right. wrote about whether countries can afford to adopt a policy of non-interference. i dun think i'll naq AGAIN. something has to be terribly wrong with me if it happens again. compre was, feeling the same as usual. econs was alright. first time in my life that i felt that i was answering the question. i tried to stay very very focused on the question. its now up to whether the reasoning is correct or not.
if i grow up and become a teacher, i think i'll have characteristics of all my teachers now. well, specific characteristics which i like. leniency of ms zhu, caringness of mr seng,hotness of ms tan(erpx?) realistic approach of ms ng(sorta miss her),and the mischief of mrs toh !!!! ahahahhaa.
wow what a great start to the term(and day, and week, and month lol) when ur pd tutor tells you "wah herrick ur girlfriend so pretty ah? not bad huh..kekekekekekekeke" alright. i know its not me that she's saying is pretty lol :( but still yay a badly needed confidence boost of some sort. its an exam day no doubt, but she's proven that its possible to beat the gloom.
for some reason i feel that i can't get the B that mr seng wants me to get..
"plak!";
x 5:36 pm
self defeating blog post
http://www.timesonline.co.uk/newspaper/0,,176-2340869,00.html
another proof that my gf should not delete rock songs off my comp.
its been a long while since i blogged. think my cover has been blown. mr ong wun see me as a gay, a gay-rights activist and a advocate of child adoption by gay couples anymore, er, i think. DAMN. such a huge pool of fun.
studied extensively and intensively on a diversified number of topics (geog-ers should know where this comes from).
meanwhile, i have unfederated and federated some portions of my reacquired knowledge of j1 history.
the opportunity cost of studying for 6-8 hours a day is well, simply, the same amount of time playing the computer. i'll be able to tell mrs toh i studied. tell the principal i studied that amount of time(though not the 9 hours she suggested quarter of a year ago).
WHILE GETTING SUCKY GRADES MOST PROBABLY.
currently suffering from inferiority complex. oh my god. i'm gonna flunk my geog cos i spent 2 days reading for the later paper than for the nearer one, flunk history cos i can't produce sufficient case studies to flesh up my wonderfully deliberated and constructed thesis statements supposedly, and flunk econs cos its the WORK OF THE INFERIORITY COMPLEX AGAIN! probably going to naq my gp essay while getting 14/15 for short questions and 3/16 for summary+aq. omg i'm so annoying.
and if i flunk so badly while still trying so hard i'm gonna lose EVERYTHING.
YOU.
it cannot happen.
i'm weak. its true.
what if it does happen?
"easy lor, all gone lor" in a mr daniel seng-ish tone.
yep.
life wouldn't be worth living then. without you. the predictability of my nature lies in my unpredictability. "TRY IT, MINER!"
"plak!";
x 8:39 pm