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the feeling i have grown to hate is love

if u do it too many times, you'd probably be caught at least once. well, i think i got caught too many times.

well, its not something like surfing pr0n, or like playing with oneself in the room. not the things u do behind the door. nope. if only someone would truly understand.. it's got nothing to do with the wrong things i love to say, nothing to do with any perverseness in any guy..it's just something natural..

cos i think she knows, that's why i think i'm in deeeeeeeep shat. how about, cos i know she knows, that's why i know i am in deeeeeeeeep shat.

yet, the feeling i have grown to hate is love.

maybe mr ong continuing to think i'm gay is a good thing. not in the sense that i will be hugging guys, but makes me sexually neutral for that moment..meaning i dun get to think about it..just a human with no primitive emotions..i'm just glad her name doesn't come up everytime i think about all these..just so glad..a clean slate perhaps but irreversibly scarred. its only the paint and gloss that got renewed. the fissures underneath.

are still there.

for some reason i cannot fathom, the prettiest girls are chao ah lians.(no surprise for chao ah bengs like me lolx) and they're not just pretty. they have characters of their own. personalities. occasional attitude problem. frequent vulgarities haha(yet there are exceptions). and yet they'll never let you climb over their heads. that would be something i appreciate most. of course there are other things. but i'm not expecting myself to elaborate endlessly..haahaa. anyway, happy birthday chee wei! you're been a great friend to have around at all times, always proffering ur advice to a noob like me. third guy to be 18, 9 days after wee liang who was 9 days after me. and my birthday is on the 9th. heh. cool.

"plak!";
x 10:17 pm

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