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x 10:29 pm
a boring narrative(might as well not read)
can only remember training my level 37 character from 0 to 45% today. which is a lot of time wasted, mind you. (basically the whole day) other than that, my eyes hurt, and i'm feeling tired and my homework is undone again. of course, i will survive all these, as i have always. so tired that i didn't play my guitar today. its seriously exhausting and my wrist seems to have trouble after 2 hours.
yesterday was history seminar. we got our certificates of participation. and the names were kinda messed up. clearon tan, jesseline onve, some other weird names.....i can imagine jessline's reaction to that (cos she didn't go) when she gets it in school. how did ong ever become onve. one would wonder. but mine was still ong. haha. i didn't get to see mr loh's gf! kristine described her to me as such...neon orange tightfitting sports apparel...nice figure....hot...desirable...hahaha...somehow i didn't seem turned on by that. there was this woman who claimed to be an ex-aj student and now studying history at nus. erm..i think she's irritating. stuck around us a bit even though kristine and i didn't bother about her..only cleavon and bel bothered to humour her. hahahah..joyce yip ling and germaine were in their own safe corner, free from any advances by her. for some reason i thought she was interested in mr loh cos she inquired profusely where our teacher was. and why should i care if she is a senior. she's just weird and eccentric.
we took some photos, but i forgot to send them..and i dun really know who to send to cos there's no contacts i can send to..hmmmm..but anyway we took a group picture, without jessline sadly. hahaha found it funny that she turned back when i shouted 'victoria' in her direction. she actually responded and waved back at me. didn't expect that to happen actually. cos more ppl are actually named victoria than ghandi. hahahah.
the rest of the post will be very boring, so i advise you to stop reading. we went to orchard. then at taka decided that there weren't any seats even though the time i recall was like 3 or 4 when the lunch crowd would have been dispersed by tear gas or hydraulic pumps but still it was THERE. and isn't that too early for dinner? are u really that hungry? or was it high tea? then can't u go somewhere else? woot still as annoying and irritating as usual. slap me.
so as i already predicted to myself, we would end up in cineleisure. hahahah kristine hates cat high guys. plain sickening idiots. i had thought we would end up taking neoprints but we didn't. thought of another irritating idea but i decided not to share it. i wanted to take pictures with my camera outside the neoprint shop..which is kind of very dumb! then we walked up...and into sembawang music store..or is it...and the 35 girls just left hurriedly all of a sudden! didn't get to say bye :( oh and by then cleavon had gone to look for the hockey guys for dinner or something. i didn't want to go cos i would be guilty :P yea i was only guy around. but i was having my regular dose of window shopping. the girls were worried i might die of boredom or worn out legs. but i'm fine. even looking at jewellery. stainless steel ear rings for 50 plus. might as well get silver. haha there's no need to train me for my future trips with my future gf..i'm well-trained if that's the method.
so we were left with me bel kristine. then we went to heerens and bel left to meet her aunt. " is it the aunt who gives free clothes?" OOPS. double positive. probably wasn't thinking the whole day cause who were just watching plays one after another. kristine then started asking me weird stuff like
"(innocently)do u know where the bikini shop is?"
'the one below?'
"u even know that!"
'you're just testing me!'
she sorta dared me to walk into some female erotica shop. and i did. and she was amazed. hahahaha... last time i did something like this was when janice and hong zhi dared me to walk into a lingerie store..big deal :P
oh and action city sells a lot of these figures shaking their heads. so due to a misunderstanding,
she walked up to them in search of the truth and asked "is herrick cute?" when we went down the escalators i saw adeline and ho zheng going up!!! hahahaa wonder if bel saw them too..had the one dollar ice cream outside. when she saw i was happily eating the ice cream she stopped me and said it was to be licked. hahahah it was the messiest ice cream i ever had cos it was the first time i licked ice cream..i'm the worst ice cream eater..my hockey senior, timothy saw me from behind and called "hendricks/hendrix". haha i knew it had to be him.
oh this issue propped up again. kristine suddenly asked me if i knew why she kept speaking to me in english. "because cat high guys cannot speak chinese!" haha, no, not true. i remember it took me a while to convince janice i can speak chinese NORMALLY. never mind, i shall talk to her in chinese the next time. she speaks chinese at home too. its the same thing with si min..somehow we'll never speak in chinese with each other..and this continues to amaze me till this day..
haha end off with a joke
There once was a farmer who was raising 3 daughters on his own. He was very concerned about their well being and always did his best to watch out for them. As they entered the late teens the girls dated and on this particular evening all three of his girls were going out on a date. This was the first time this had occurred. As was his custom, he would greet the young suitor at the door holding his shotgun, not to menace or threaten but merely to ensure that the young man knew who was boss.
The doorbell rang and the first of the boys arrived. Father answered the door and the lad said " Hi, my name's Joe, I'm here for Flo. We're going to the show, is she ready to go?" The father looked him over and sent the kids on their way.
The next lad arrived and said " My name's Eddie, I'm here for Betty, we're gonna get some spaghetti, is she ready?" Father felt this one was ok too, so off the two kids went.
The final young man arrived and the farmer opened the door.
The boy started off"Hi, my name's Chuck "..... and the farmer shot him.
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x 9:35 pm
even u think im a flirt..
me: oh i got tell u i got a new wife already?
ex-wife: aiyo, so flirt. after divorce not long ago u go and look for one le. haha. who's she?
me:nah i'm not a flirt! gotcha. there's only the one person in my heart now, as was so not long ago..i knew you would react that way la..but i am not a flirt. after all, she is on my bed now. i love my new guitar.
All this was because i was provoked by this sms she sent me!
SoMeTiMeS mY mInD aSkS...
Y?i mIsS u
Y?i cArE 4 you
Y?i sMs U
DeN mY hEaRt AnS..
It'S sImPlY bEcUz
SMS IS FREE!
HaHaHa =pPpPp
oh my god..what a cruel thing to do to me......i almost fainted!
my new guitar is vintage white hehehe...i wanna be hetfield. i wanna be cobain. i wanna sing and play the guitar at the same time. but its okay if i can only be axl rose. ahha.
"plak!";
x 10:59 pm
200th post
how fast. 200th post.
spoke to my neighbour for the first time. and we've lived together for 9 years actually. i'm really a dao person.
we lost the history seminar. mr seng was too confident i guess. we were only the second group, after all.but got to know jessline and kristine.. how can queen victoria be spewing vulgarities all over..even more vulgar than me..u win...
bought my guitar today. 350 bucks for a craftsman st-30 and a line 6 15 watts amp. carried it back to aj like hell cos had to pass jian qi's pedal, which cost 128 bucks. i dun trust cards, so i brought 550 bucks in my wallet there. lucky i didn't get robbed. the guitar would have cost 225, and the amp 315. so i saved 540-350=190 bucks i guess. and its quite nice. cream-coloured..and i'm still exploring it. so much more i can do with this than my classical guitar which now lies in my sister's room. i hated it as much as i needed it to practise.
i haven't forgotten i'm our band's vocalist. i will get my priorities right. jammed last sunday and it was quite a flop. no one really practised for it, and everyone just wanted to be heard la. individually,we have it. coordination is an acute problem though. and not forgetting how we switched roles for smells like teen spirit. ho zheng still on drums, but he and jian qi were both singing. andrew played rhythm guitar again, but a few times went to do double bass, and i was lead guitarist! LOL that was real fun. and we managed to do the song u know. though its severely substandard..
everytime i update my ipod, i realise i am changing with it. as in my preference for music. the first change was to get rid of all chinese songs, which was done long time ago. and then i slowly removed the black rapping, low-class techno...what else.....more pop perhaps. and now its full of rock and metal. have some other 'breaks' though.
have to trim my hair again. i trimmed one side correctly and it looks nice now, but the other side is not really right and doesn't look right at second glance...
highlight of the day. mrs toh, upon noticing a young relief teacher walking into auditorium, " that teacher looks gay". and i couldn't stop laughing hysterically for like 3 minutes. i thought i went crazy. though she saw the gay wrongly, but i knew who she was referring to lah! its 32/05's new teacher for the week..and he's very gay...imagine what would have happened if it was the real gay who walked in..heheh....
oh this week is hong zhi's and my sister's common test. good luck girls!
why am i so shy..looking down whenever i see you..what a wuss...
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x 10:16 pm
happy happy thrilled overjoyed excited
went to orchard with si min again! she spent 1 hour looking through the year book. and made cookies for me, of which most were in crumbs by the time she gave it to me. i finally got this notepad with a kitten glaring at a teddy bear and then a pair of 'onion rings' for hong zhi!!!
she seems to be thrilled to have got it! i'm happy too! i wanna pamper her..haha...i travelled from dhoby ghaut to hougang and then she didn't even come out to see me..cos she was afraid her dad will skin her..dropped the stuff in her letterbox and the corner was crumpled a bit :(
then i went home immediately after that. i think i'm dumb. cos i was afraid the lift will cut the reception, i climbed up ten floors by stairs back home. hahahhaa.....its definitely worth it.. to hear the true joy in her voice. ahhhh i'll be happy for a very long time. yay!
the cat resembled her cat she used to raise except that its a different colour..i'm sure zhizhi melted!!!and the earrings were nice la, i had to comb through cineleisure and heeren shops to find it. i almost was about to give up when i found it on the top floor. or rather, si min pointed me to that shop..she's better at shopping though...
where's marian...haven't seen her for a week....and its xavier's birthday tmr!!! decided to get him a shirt cos he has an acute lack of shirts to go out with. (its for his friends' welfare too u know)
had history seminar rehearsal today. mr seng was superbly impressed with my performance! i hope i can keep it up and not disappoint him! i know he used to think i'm useless piece of junk, but not any longer!!! i far exceeded his expectations. heh. i'm so darn happy.
i reached my pit, and its time i started to rise again. isn't this what happens to every person once in a while? oh yea.
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x 10:50 pm
a reply
Soldier Ivanov was ordered to peel a barrel of potatos.
In this day and age, the army should have a machine to peel potatos, complains Ivanov.
Absolutely, answered the sergeant. And you are its latest model.
-jokes aside-
looking at the letter u wrote me, i suddenly remembered one statement repeated and varied many times today, (so what if its v-day, we can still cuss) wow i've known you for 1 whole year now! and i can't believe that you're still a bastard/asshole/kao bei kia/pu bor kia/whichever vulgarities. for wee liang it's hum ji kia. i'm so disappointed in him...but i'm not alone though.
yea i remember the first time we introduced ourselves. somehow i could not forget your name. i seem to recall myself repeating your name many times when i got home. i must have been psycho. and i kept smiling to myself. haha. crazy. it must have been quite entertaining in those days. especially when i was much more chubbier and rounder and plump and fat and rotund....
its been a year, and our friendship has only become closer with time. but it nearly got fatal when it was the closest. must have been my fault, though i know why u say its ur fault too. i never told u that i know. you're the person whom i can talk nonsense with, talk serious with, talk emotions. it's hard to find such a friend who i place all my trust in. i'll always treasure you too, come what may.
But will you promise not to stab my chest for the sake of our friendship?
aren't you the kind and gentle girl i've found? am i wrong? heh all i wanna do is to care for you and dun tell me u are going to stop me? this time, don't stop me.
sometimes i get a bit uncomfortable when my friends get a tad too formal with me. they may have forgotten i am still human.
i claim to have quite a number but how many have i in truth?
"plak!";
x 11:31 pm
valentine's day
feel so guilty lah!
i knew i was gonna receive things..but still didn't have anything to give anyone. except a rose.
only at the receiving end. i mean i wanted to do stuff for my class and do what i did last year. but i seriously didn't know valentine's day was THAT soon.
but then, what's the use if u are nice to ur classmates only 2 days every year? v-day and birthday. wun that be hypocritical? not saying that everyone who gave everyone else stuff is like that, but u get where i'm going right. dun care. should be going town with dirty little dumb girl on thursday. and imma gonna get stuff. though belated. but only for that very few.
and i'm gonna write a letter and make a box with paper planes of every design, i hope
and no i just can't do what u want me to. maybe i can cope with it better nowadays though.
i'm attracted to no one else.
yes i finally cried. last friday while talking to mrs toh about my studies. so what. its been 2 years. i finally let it out. she didn't scold me. dun get the wrong idea though.
"plak!";
x 10:44 pm
if youre 555 then im 666. but im 66
oh actually there's supposed to be a cny day 2 post but i was lazy so forget it.
we went to si min's house on thursday. wee liang and i started to play bow and arrow with each other. seriously i was very entertained cos i have never wielded a bow and arrow before. as in the toys kind. of course not the real ones lah! (how i wish man) shawn and wee liang destroyed her house by kicking her mini basketball and makng CHEST PASSes. who wants to play a game of chest pass with me? will make sure ur chest is a thing of the past. hahaha! while hou teng and i were more dead. he was as quiet as usual..while i played guitar. took out some scores and had difficulty playing simple pieces like clementine. oh i must confess i have never been able to play happy birthday on any instrument. its very tough i feel. conned both si min and hou teng when i took out greensleeves' score and after one look that lasted fraction of a second i played the whole song out. haha..lame....when we left i said ' ge ge zai jian' hahaha...her family is very kind. maybe next time i will bring my hockey stick and ball and start demolishing her yard's tiles. :P
friday was cross country. we had this rare class outingg kind of lunch again where we went to toa payoh. i thought i would have a light snack. so went with the guys to old chang kee. and i committed this horrible mistake. i bought a curry puff and a cup of lime juice. i couldn't take the spicyness at all. and the lime juice added to my troubles that were to be apparent few hours later.. we guys sat in a circle and started plucking grass and throwing at each other. so when wee liang threw at shawn and it landed on me instead i joined the battle. that was how we ended up throwing at each other cos throwing grass is hardly an accurate sport. then to make things worse we start shouting at each other like a bunch of gangsters. so it was co beng vs ps bengs wannabe vs hockey beng vs table tennis beng vs air rifle beng. isn't it obvious who would emerge the champion beng? the most renowned cca in the school with an established reputation for hooliganism. we cursed and swore and cussed at each other pointlessly. a few times i got up and gave wee liang a well-deserved bashing. hahahaha.... quoth chee yao, " dun scold vulgarities lah fuck" hahaha typical of us..
i feel so bad la..agreed somewhat that we'd run together. but i already did not want to just complete the race..i wanted top 50 without knowing my abilities! so although we started together and pushed the people in front together, we came in at different times. eh wait. 'pushed the people in front' makes us sound so mean. we probably are. when the race started i started to stride forward and i could hear shawn and wee liang calling me to wait up..ahahahah....as usual i pang sehed them..so okay. that was the like 5th time in 2 or 3 months i ran there i think. at least lah. common observation amongst many was that there were those smart alecks who sprinted for the first 100m and stopped and slowed down and started walking and prevented the real runners from advancing. bloody irritating lah!!!anyway i ran halfway and i had this horrible stitch that i still felt the next day. i realised it was the combination of the HOT curry puff and SOUR lime juice. wah damn smart. left the last quarter and my left side of my back was in cramps which felt worse, since i could not straighten my back properly. its so funny that i saw yu ling somewhere before the girls route exit, and that i saw her again when she got out. got me confused a bit. and those waterpoints weren't useful at all. i realised i could not drink the water at all! and i had no choice but to litter. i'm sorry. only could wet my mouth but the water refused to go down. thank goodness i had prepared myself mentally for the series of humps that never almost never ended on lornie road. at the turning point into the last 300m i saw our class girls. hahaha...lazy ppl walking only. they were the last 100 from what i saw. thanks for the encouragement..lol..jun xian was in front of me..hehe..feels so good to have caught up with him. he got 65 and i got 66. but i was depressed after that. cos i failed to get the top 50 i promised si min and not forgetting myself.. but i think i did quite well(let me console myself). last year i tried my best and i got like 247 or whatever. this year i got 66. this is credited to charles. HAHA. i have no part to play in this. well alll the while i have believed the seniors always got top 100 and i did not want to be an exception to that legacy. so i did not let mark down i suppose. i mean, i'm in the top 500 right? hahahahaaha it is as promised :)
saturday was a blast. 4 hours of training..more or less. went back to school with sai gang justin andrew and gordon. and we crapped out a song! sing to the tune of da da hui chun this chorus:
justin seng....gordon foooo.....herrick ong and andrew goh, sai gang warriors! then add in words that are appropriate at that time..rushed off to eugene's house to meet with my primary 6 classmates. for some it was since primary 4 too! it feels so nice to be back with a bunch of them after 5 years. thankfully we still talked as we were in primary 6. so proud of ourselves. my form teacher would be touched to know that we were still drinking vodka and winning each other's money..haha doesn't sound too positive..does it. lost 6 bucks there just being banker for 3 rounds. i kept suanin debbie cos she was playing for jun hao at times and even managing his finances..wah...jun hao's wife for the day. then she kept throwing the cushion at me. just like a CHEST PASS. while connie was les-ing with ya ting. wow quite extreme. ya ting's one side is totally flat now. connie is perverted. eugene lost money and took the opportunity to go to his room where his gf was. pity the gf lor. hahahaha...shhhhhh. eric shared his vodka with me cos i arrived late and had no such drinks. and we strummed and sang the rest of the day. took dumb pictures too. ya ting needed contact photos what..went bowling in the night. eugene's brother, edmund was promised a second free game if he scored ABOVE 100 points. thing is, he finished at exactly 100. which was cool. so he went to collect his prize from his mum. and his mum said no count! LOLLLLLLLLLL!!!!! had so much fun with debbie lah. she told me her feet were size 7, which she thought were quite big for a girl. bearing this fact in mind, i suaned her all the way even after we got home. called her da jiao por. then mine were size 9. to her its very big also lah..even bigger actually....so she called me da jiao gong. then she called me bigfoot. then i also call her bigfoot. but we were supportive of each other. ahh. eugene sat down, looked at her legs and before she bowled he commented she had carrot legs. so i shouted carrot legs. she almost fell to the ground, ball in hand. hahahaha she turned back and gestured tossing the ball at me somemore..lol...the next time she went i had the sudden inspiration to scream cai tao kway! and she reacted even more violently!!! lol......in the end i praised her for her pretty legs lah...hahahaha..what the hell we were even comparing leg muscles at one point in time. of course i won :P eugene's parents really know how to make their sons happy. they treated us to two games sia. must have cost quite a bit. but of course they won quite some money from us too..she's like the queen of gambling..oh my god..i can't deny this..
"plak!";
x 12:10 am
cny day 1
u can see the long haired dude is the father of the kung fun kid. one is richard. the son is ricsson. (i'm really not joking!)
and u can see richard's wife and their son and dotter with my granddad. okay richard's wife is my ah yi. u also see clara the dotter playing a stacking game, but she is joined by 2 other cousins in fact, the other who is looking up. that's thomas my biao di. and u can see another family in another picture. as u can tell by the colours its not a really very happy family. ah yes there's some fungi there. i plucked some and had them for supper. they go down quite well in my stomach. there are about 3 or 4 distinct species i picked out actually. and another pic is that of a well. its so damn big and scary and deep of course. ah gong told us not to look into it. i wonder why. i took a peep too, but didn't see any ghosts leh. of course my ah gong likes to pose with his vegetables. well just to let u know its his farm. sort of..he grows lots of bananass which 4 families cos of my ah yi and jiu jius and my mom are unable to finish and 2 just rotted in my bag on cny celebrations..he's so proud of his farm. even built his own house there if u realised. if u look closer there's even a statuette of the virgin mary in some miniature altar. cool man. when i grow old i'll be like him. and he denied there were mosquitoes when the place was swarming with them. mom told me old men like face. guess its very true.
"plak!";
x 10:44 pm
go out everyday
maybe this is one of the rare times i talk about my cca.
we did just the basics today. all screwed up. i felt i did not, but that's not the point. what happens when everyone screws up? charles gets disappointed maybe. dunno if i'm right though.
what charles said confirmed my suspicions. i had only very recently realised that what was wrong with me during trainings was my mental. if u wanna put it that way. alternatively its cos
I HAVE AN ATTITUDE PROBLEM.
is it too late? charles said some was cos of physical, some cos of skills and some cos of the mind, that's what was lacking in some of us. so far i dun believe i lack the skills part that bad. my physical isn't exactly the best u can find, but still manageable. jason told me i've got stamina and strength..maybe its speed..but that's not the problem..still it is the mental.
many a time i have given up all hope at the last few glimmers of light. now THAT is the problem. and i think i'm already changing for the better.
i dun want to win. i'm pragmatic. i wanna get in the team, then aim for top 16, then aim for top 11. charles told me he did not intend to drop anyone. that ought to dispel all negative thoughts in me now. still, i can't give up on myself..him..its not fair for him. just like us he's fighting the odds too..
when asked what i did the last five days i just told him 'go out everyday' he said 'good! i like the honest answer!' but i'm sorry charles. ask any other chinese and that should be the answer still. the last thing i would do would be to lie.
and congrats to si min for clinching the 17th position in cross-country. heh. proud of u dirty little dumb girl. did not disappoint me indeed! maybe its my turn :P but make it 71th then.
some people never get it. well, maybe they would someday, just like me
"plak!";
x 9:37 pm