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sorrow and misery :(

i'm so sad and tired. today is the worst start ever to the new year.

i arrive in school late, holding my hockey stick. ms tay my hockey teacher is the first teacher who sees me.

after i got booked for my failure to be punctual, i got booked again. the major caught me for my hair. how fair. i just cut it on saturday.

mrs toh is utterly displeased with me being late "class leader also", and informs me that ms tay my hockey teacher will be my assistant pd tutor. when i go for pe i see ms tay and she tells me she's my asst pd tutor and that i was a hockey player and i was late, reflecting very badly on the team. and again 'class leader also"

i go home, and my heart is shattered, once again.

i got to face my own feelings. to be honest with myself. the last time it happened, it was awkward. i promised to be ur best friend, and that i would try not to love u anymore and that u wouldn't let me wait. its been 2 months, but my feelings for u have not subsided, but maybe grew. once again. maybe i have been living a life of deceit. while the way i treated u was of ur best friend to u, i don't think it was the same on my side. i tried stopping myself from crossing the line, but i only found myself trampling over it. don't we know each other so well already? that probably u would know how i'm feeling. come what may, you are still MY EVERYTHING. i can't imagine where i would be without you.

would our friendship still be as strong now if i still can't get over you? i really don't want to destroy this beautiful friendship we have; its much too precious to be damaged. our friendship still has a long way to go. i don't want to lose my best friend.

i don't want to lose you, hong zhi. i'm sorry to put u through this yet again.

"plak!";
x 9:20 pm

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