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it's amazing how i've survived until now. basically thriving on nothing but just the thought of you. i dun study anything, but i still do my best. i recall what i've learnt during lessons and simply apply it in the papers. i'm so happy that i didn't study the case studies, just because i did not have much use for them. maybe i am in trouble for this, but i don't know, and i don't care, there's still the south east asia paper on monday and also the econs mcq drq case study on monday too but all i wanna see is you cos it's been a whole month and it's too long and it's killing me just hearing your voice on the phone is simply not enough for me yea. chinese was well, tough i guess. it's the first time i said anything's tough i feel like i'm really going to be screwing up this paper though u say i'm a half bucket in my chinese i tell you i'm in fact three-quarters but today i felt as if i was real empty that was how bad it got maybe it's cos i did not mug the dictionary before the test but all i guess was that i was real burnt out already and i know the same thing is going to happen on monday and perhaps even worse i don't want to think how bad it is but i'm just looking forward to the end of tomorrow, where i can go get my well deserved sleep though i really have no idea to what i lost it to though i did not study and if you don't believe me and "if you don't understand, don't bother to ask" it's okay i won't blame anyone afterall everyone's used to people saying they don't study and yet they thrash them flat when the results come out but for me it's not true. i really did not study, and i do not expect much. but then again i expect much because i put in my best. it sounds so contradictory i myself find it hard to accept but again it's the truth. this i tell myself so that i remember myself and i can regret enough when i get back the papers but somehow i never seem to regret but all i want to do is to regret for only then will i learn my lessons but being last minute is what i've always been. what cat high ppl have always been. and it works. many more times than you can expect. when the guys talk about some other girl who look pretty or slutty or bitchy or whatever i'll just be around by chance, and i'll always say the same thing 'can you not say that of my friend?' it's so amusing to see it happen cos either they are ogling at her or they are criticising how ^&%* that girl is though she's at least pretty and i would always say the same thing and it's so amusing and fun and they always ask why are these people all your friends and i say i don't know so it surely tells you alot about me doesn't it. i 'm crapping non-stop but i'm just grateful to my classmates for the comfort and company they bring. staying in aj for them was an excellent choice i will never regret though there's no such thing as a smooth-shaven bald head there would be bumps here and there but still i see the big picture. i'm constantly wondering i am indeed feeling least stressed during exams or not because apparently i am experiencing both ends. the stress that i want to do well, that has been my nature actually though you can't see it on any day and the other end is cos i keep smirking to myself saying i can do those eh so manageable but yea all i dun want to see is pools of red on my scripts then they'll see just one big pool of red on the spot nah i'm kidding even if i have to get kicked out i won't be so silly. i was so exhausted after the paper that after taking away my jacket my pencilcase my bottle i forgot my wallet. good old mdm ng shouted at me and returned my the wallet. it was like wow is that my wallet i felt my ass and it was flat no so it was my wallet i'm so grateful to her i still think she's the nicest teacher anyone can ever have though her lessons may be boring but even if i wanted to i can't have her teach me now cos i dropped maths. mr hong is also very nice but he's too nice and i even visited some guy's blog his form class somemore and he criticised mr hong for not being able to teach in an absolutely not constructive manner i felt so angry i wanted to punch that guy dun be taken in by his nerdy idiotic fuckface look he's just screwed up just like cat high ppl all are and yea he's a cat high guy and i thought he was nice fuck that how can he criticise his form teacher that's why i hate people who look innocent they are so simply annoying.

alleluia. i'm so tired that i'm feeling emotional. pardon me for my language. had to let it out. and the sentences that never ended. one of them was 180 words long actually. sorry. i'm going off to sleep now. but this time i have to study. geog. A. here i come. and then we will all wake up and it will all be a dream.

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