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x 8:59 pm
www.colorgenics.com
was at the library with shafiq eleanor cheryl wendy and mei ying. they showed me this personality test. and wendy kept saying it's damn accurate. all the girls went to do, then all quite shocked ba. cos very accurate. then shafiq and i sitting there dissing the test again. then shafiq went to do it. he was made a believer instantly. haha....i refused to do it, until i got home. okie it's quite true:
You are under considerable stress and you are almost about to 'blow your top' but you are fortunate enough to be able to exert control. Control is the name of the game and it is so good to realize that whatever the situation may be at this time - it will pass. You need to get away from everything for a while and if you do, you will find that, strangely enough, it will seem that most of your problems and situations will seem to wash away, just as the sea may wash away 'footprints' in the sand.
Being impulsive and irritable, your desires and needs are paramount. You do things with insufficient thought - with little regard to the consequences that may follow. As a consequence of this attitude, you may be experiencing stress and conflict.
You are a very choosy person - demanding and exacting in your emotional demands and very particular in your choice of partner. You are self-sufficient and as a result of this overbearing nature you find it difficult to establish any depth of deep physical or mental involvement with members of the opposite sex.
Whatever you strive to do, something always seems to be holding you back. There is no subterfuge in you. You are a clear thinker and all you demand from life, in a relationship, is a partner whom you can trust and with whom you can, together, develop a foundation of trust based on understanding. You are your own person and you demand freedom of thought to follow your own convictions. You have no interest in 'two-timing' and all you seek is sincerity and 'straight-dealing'.
You need to be needed and would like a situation where you will no longer be subjected to pressures and demands from those about you. There is no harm in 'dreaming' but it is you - and only you - that can be able to realize those dreams and to turn them into reality.
we had lots of fun there. making hell lot of noise there. cheryl and eleanor said i dun look like i'm from cat high, i look like i'm from xin min cos there's too many in my class and whatnot. cheryl said someone in her class said i look like an ah beng. at least it's only one. oh ya she agrees too. so that makes two. it's okay^^ but there are many more in my class who think so. lol! it's okay. i love ah lians too. ah lians are hot!
You are so adamant at this time, you are not willing to concede to anything. You are dictatorial with your own ideas and the way you are feeling and there is little that anyone can do to make you change your mind, or to be able to persuade you to make concessions or to accept any compromise.
For some time now you have been feeling rather insecure. You are looking for - and needing - an environment that can offer you roots, stability and a position that will relieve you of excess tension and stress.
Everyone, sooner or later gets that feeling that one has been cut off from reality, cut off from everything that's going on around them. It usually happens when there is a complete lack of understanding and co-operation - be it from friends, family or loved ones. So what can one do about it? Instead of pondering as to what the future may hold, do something different. Make a cup of coffee. Have a shower. Read a book. Watch your favourite soap opera. Because as soon as you become involved in something different, the original disassociated feelings will dissipate.
Your ability to withstand the pressures of everyday life have been overtaxed and this is leading to stress and frustrations. It would seem that for the time being you have lost the resilience and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties. You feel that it is all 'too much' and, try as you may, you are getting nowhere. But to give you credit, you continue to stand your ground and pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity. Naturally this situation is subjecting you to intolerable stress and pressure from which you would dearly like to escape, but you can not bring yourself to make the necessary decision. As a result you remain firmly involved in the problem and you can neither view it objectively nor get rid of it - you cannot leave it alone and you feel that you will only be at peace when you have reached your objective.
There is that inherent fear that you may be prevented from attaining the better things in life - those things that you consider essential to your well-being. So you are prepared to try everything to prove to yourself that whatever you do or try will go wrong. This destructive attitude could come under the heading of 'a self fulfilling prophecy'. This belittling yourself is your method of disguising how hopeless and what a waste of time you feel that everything is. So now turn it about. As you 'think', so you are... So 'imagine' yourself successful. 'Pretend', 'act it out' and you may be pleasantly surprised at the outcome.
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x 8:01 pm
http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/
1.You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
2.In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
3.You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
4.You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.
5.Your ideal relationship is lasting.You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
6.Your risk of cheating is high. You can't resist desire and lust.
7.You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.
8.In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.
all true except 6 and 8!
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x 1:29 pm
dream
for a long time, i have not had any dreams in my sleep. yesterday i desired very much to dream. to dream of you.
and i did.
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x 12:02 pm
abc
i used to wander about. no goals in mind, just wanted a pass. but you gave me a goal. i see, why not?
get an a for geog, b for history and c for econs. it ain't impossible. it can if i work towards it. it still isn't too late. i can do it.
i never want to go back on any promises i made.
fool around anymore; and it's ur own life you're meddling with herrick. wake up.
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x 12:11 am
smartass
TEACHER: Maria, go to the map and find North America.
MARIA: Here it is.
TEACHER: Correct. Now class, who discovered America?
CLASS: Maria.
TEACHER: Why are you late, Frank?
FRANK: Because of the sign.
TEACHER: What sign?
FRANK: The one that says, "School Ahead, Go Slow."
TEACHER: John, why are you doing your math multiplication on the floor?
JOHN: You told me to do it without using tables.
TEACHER: Glenn, how do you spell "crocodile?"
GLENN: K-R-O-K-O-D-I-A-L"TEACHER: No, that's wrong.
GLENN: Maybe it is wrong, but you asked me how I spell it.
TEACHER: Donald, what is the chemical formula for water?
DONALD: H I J K L M N O.
TEACHER: What are you talking about?
DONALD: Yesterday you said it's H to O.
TEACHER: Winnie, name one important thing we have today that we didn't have ten years ago.
WINNIE: Me!
TEACHER: Goss, why do you always get so dirty?
GOSS: Well, I'm a lot closer to the ground than you are.
TEACHER: Millie, give me a sentence starting with "I."
MILLIE: I is...
TEACHER: No, Millie... Always say, "I am."
MILLIE: All right... "I am the ninth letter of the alphabet."
TEACHER: George Washington not only chopped down his father's cherry tree, but also admitted it. Now, Louie, do you know why his father didn't punish him?
LOUIS: Because George still had the axe in his hand.
TEACHER: Now, Simon, tell me frankly, do you say prayers before eating?
SIMON: No sir, I don't have to, my Mom is a good cook.
TEACHER: Clyde, your composition on "My Dog" is exactly the same as your brother's. Did you copy this?CLYDE: No, teacher, it's the same dog.
TEACHER: Harold, what do you call a person who keeps on talking when people are no longer interested?HAROLD: A teacher.
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x 11:37 pm
siao ar?
oh my god i started this whole week damn HIGH!! YES it's the highest i've ever been. high high high. laughing at everything. enjoying everything. loving everything. maybe it's cos i've gone mad. nope, not from studies, nor drugs. for my studies, i have not studied yet. but yet, i do not fear. cos i trust my teachers' comprehensive revision packages. i'm sure they will be sufficient. so i'm not working that hard. as for drugs, i was sick the whole of last week. but by this week all the effects should have worn off. so yes, it's neither of the probable factors. high maybe cos i started the week very happily ^^
and yes, i joined the open house facilitators! it's gonna be so fun!(i think i posted about it, but who cares?)!!! fun fun fun! more fun! especially with the hockey guys around. more than half signed up. we were late for that meeting at lt2, but never mind, i guess they were waiting for us. haha! only started after we went in. okie la, not due to us. heheh. it's always a very funny thought. about 15 of us just walked up the side aisle at lt2, one by one. it's as if i could feel silence among the others seated down there. okie, but maybe i'm hallucinating. hahaha..but one thing i know, is that we are seen as the most thuggish group in aj. and i love it! you know why? it's cos we're obviously not the ones that give aj its foul(though not necessarily bad but i hate it) reputation of muggers. or even worse, fuggers as jesper has imparted to me. hockey guys are cool, we all are! but well i guess we were the most bastard bunch ya. lotsa noise. phang and i got into the same group. while other groups were breaking the ice already, we two guai lan around. so our group didn't even talk to one another. even worse, i didn't even know who the members were until jessica and darren had to keep asking us group 2 who is ur ic. so phang and his 2 other guy friends and i ganged up on some "MOST-GOODLOOKING" guy as our ic. anyway i heard them say words like mugger, faggot, gay, sissy. or maybe i'm hallucinating. but anyway, that's all the words i use to describe him.my bad. anyway he's from cat high too. i wonder why there must be such idiots like him. i overheard his conversation with another cat high guy in our group who happens to be my friend,"u know that darlie toothpaste? buy two can get a free mug leh!!~i used that mug to mug.."some other lame crap. oh ya not forgetting he is aunty. can't stand him. i think i'll buay song him soon. but i think he's harmless. it's just that i'm not. oops. oh YA! talking about being bastards and all. our group was pressed to appoint an ic. so jessica asked, and we pointed at him. then laugh laugh laugh very loudly. then she said, okay, what's his name? and i said I DON'T KNOW??!!!ROFLLLLLLL
(well i still have yet to know)
but i don't want to know, knowing that i will have to know someday.
oh that was yesterday.
today was as crazy i think. as usual this morning at 6.25.
"kor, wake up"
after 1 min,
"kor, wake up"
after another min,
"kor wake up lah!"
my younger sis wakes me up everyday. how nice. (isn't it supposed to be the other way round?!?!)
then i go brush my teeth. bathe. lens. wax. by the time i leave home? 7 am.
somehow i've always been on time. on time as in on-the-spot time time. thursday right? no assembly. so go to dance studio. when i got in, almost everyone was seated there already, and it was in front somemore. mrs toh kept staring at me. then i panic, thought something wrong or what. then she said(can't remember her exact words) something like, " actually, you look quite handsome, but only if you weren't rushing. anyway nice hair ar blab blab blaaaa" WAH EGO BOOST IN THE MORNING. NO WONDER I'M SO HIGH. I'M EGOISTIC!!!and for the dunno how manyth time, i cut my own hair! so i did a great job. yay. but it's getting long again :( yucks. time to trim again. put my edward scissorshands skills to work again. i guess i was lucky the previous time, i wonder whether i'll be cursed or lucky this time. okie sorry for my vanity. i'm deeply sorry if you have been distraught aar of this. (aar is an internal joke in history class,maybe not so much of a joke)
today in class. justin brought his pokemon deck to school. THAT WAS IT! and we ended up talking so much about pokemon. it felt as if the cycle was back again. and here to stay? the cycle when we all were hooked on to pokemon cards. and it got so deep, it seemed no one would come out?but the point is, that there would be about 7 decks tmr. victory's gonna be mine. i'm so gonna show u what ur pdg rep is made up of! i'm a real pokemon trainer! mwahahahhahahahaa. i can do more than perform lame administrative duties for the school!
love you too much
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x 9:47 pm
nag nag nag
i must have done the job too well. unlike hou teng who screwed up gross the last time he cut his hair, i did a much better job trimming my hair. no one believes i trimmed it myself. well actually my hair's in a total mess. just that styling it with wax makes it look good. without it, it's totally yucks. haha.
haven't touched my revision much. but as the days go by, i realise something.
well i've been paying attention in class, so i should not be panicking that bad. and maybe that's why i'm still quite nonchalant. however, this has to stop. i got to start studying. really start. maybe when all the distractions are destroyed first.
"i can only study after you take apart my bed and smash my computer". haha. quoted it from you.
well, school-based stuff can be a form of distraction too. cos i joined the open house facilitators! and jian qi's in charge of the performance segment that day, so he got me to go sing some gay song(okie la, it's a whole new world :P) with caryn. poor caryn..dun seem too enthusiatic about it now cos of so much more stress..especially the farewell assembly..nevertheless..jia you worz! the edward becheras alumni choir should be set up after promos. and yea, i should be joining it. haha.
someone play patience on the guitar..i so wanna sing it..if only someone would teach me how to play that tab so i can sing it and play it simultaneously.
2 more days to lao po's exams. wonder how she's studying now(more like sleeping). i realise we've been seeing each other like once a week since june, but these 2 weeks are the first time we haven't done so. cos it's the exam season anyway ya.
somehow i keep thinking i've offended a few ppl since yesterday. i think it's somehow true. i must have made fun of adeline way too much and overboard. sigh. i must learn to shut my mouth now.
so many people are falling sick nowadays. come on peeps! it's like less than 2 weeks to the start of promos already! dun succumb to the dark side like i did the whole of last week!
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x 11:01 pm
thanks lots peeps
i've been sick since sunday, but only today did it culminate in stomach ulcers or something. first time i got them, so i'm not sure if they're that. anyway thanks to all the classmates who showed me loving concern and patience. i would also like to thank all my other friends ya...especially my ever-loving wife. ms ng too.
you're the catalyst for my path to recovery.
anyway, while it feels terrible, being sick may be good for you. weight loss is guaranteed, though the quantity is variable. just kidding! ahahah!!
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x 12:58 am
Just like the hearse you died to get in again.
13/9/05
new blog skin. thanks to my wonderful sis, step-on-me. stephanie la. new chatterbox too. so no more tagging issues. got some journey song. i'm planning to change it soon too. i hope you all like it. cute enough i hope. i actually wanted a cinnamoroll skin. but my sis said it was too gross. anyway that character is some cute dog from sanrio. u know the company that markets bad badzt maru and hello kitty. but no way :( my sis is like my mom at times. though she's 2 years younger than me.
today was quite funny. in the auditorium shortly before econs lecture. very sian, so took out my bottle of vitamin c tablets for novelty and also to eat=swallow. denise caryn and liang pei saw already, then wah, can i have one too? of course, go ahead! then suddenly, caryn sounded as if she was like choking or dying or dunno what la. damn funny can! her face just turned! notice i said eat=swallow? unfortunately i forgot to tell her that. she CHEWED on it! weeeeeee! CHEW ON IT! ownage!!1!!!!
during class civics. quite fun ba. sorry had to make everyone do some like objectives kind of thing. well, i heard responses such as "not really relevant", "what's this for"..hmm...i know why they say that too, but well it's better to have something to keep u on track ya. though some boxes didn't apply for some groups i think. but the highlight was the grading/rating system that was to come by virtue of the boys in class. i never knew we were such a bastardly sort, but well it's a comforting feeling anyway :P so they started naming some more prominent girls in school, then you would hear numbers being announced. somehow u never heard any integer greater than 7. somehow we started going into specific characteristics of girls and started rating again. wollen adeline somehow came into the picture. then starting asking the guys if she was fierce. wo xiong ma wo xiong ma? then a few said wo gei shi fen for xiong. it wasn't very long before someone twisted that intention in his head, and we dropped that number to a very low integer subsequently.(this is a dirty joke if you still ain't getting no shit :P)
hmmm. hou teng ahhh you are so evil. started pounding me with funny questions. vai se pentaho is NOT an expression of love in some foreign language. it's a portuguese curse phrase. you got the wrong ideas hehehh.
oh i did some jealousy test in friendster few days ago. 33.3%. it's not that i don't care, but it's just healthy enough i guess. yea okie next time i'll be real jealous. ahha. i wonder how jealous u would be though. we're gonna do pair dancing for morning pe. which is stupid. i told u i don't want to go cos i'm really faithful to you. it's real! but u dun mind dancing with others..says something about ur jealousy too..lolx. you've always cared so much for me. where could i get a better wife?
oh ya. the ring i wore, was a ring i bought last year. i bought it myself, for myself. ur versions are wrong. the "i bought it myself, for her" version is WRONG. please take note ar. anyway mr seng loves to make fun of me. i had to make use of the bottom space of the board to finish writing my group's stuff. so i just kneeled on one knee to write. that stupid ^$%& said that i was practising how to propose. THANKS!
"i had to spend sleepless nights marking your script"-Mr Loh Chih Hui, history tutor, in a comment expressed to his student, Herrick Ong, on his handwriting.
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x 10:19 pm
reality check
You scored a 37.84%.For this test, the average percentage is 52.279677973283%.44841 people have taken this test to date.
This score classifies you as:
You trust those close to you, but have a hard time trusting new people and people you don't know very well. Your beliefs are mostly set, and you have difficulty listening to the demands and opinions of other. You have some close friends, but its sometimes difficult to find new friends. Open your mind and listen to others, and you'll be happier in the end.
http://www.studentcenter.org/tests/taketest.php?id=3
some weird personality test. okay. i still have yet to do history tutorial 4, 5, and 7. and the essay. and geog 8 mark essay part. and econs airline merger crap. my nose and throat are still giving me problems, but i feel much better already. oh and the date is 11/9/2005. school's starting tmr. i'm so not looking forward to it. make or break. this is the term i've endured for. can't give up at the last lap. even if it's not for myself, i gotta pass for your sake. you're the only source of my motivation now.
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x 11:38 pm
sick
i proudly congratulate myself for falling sick today. feverish and sore throat and runny nosey ho!it's the first time in the year i'm sick. so proud of myself. but still i pressed on. 8 hours of project work where we just revamped the written report. it's like smashing everything on the floor, piecing some stuff together, throwing some stuff away and gluing on some parts u found along the way. it's a very meaningful process, albeit painful. heheh i guess we all had lots of fun, right caryn?(perhaps the only member who reads my blog lol). cos shawn and i were being accused of being in the ice age, we then changed our lame jokes to talking about everything we knew about the ice age(s). haha sweet revenge! irritated caryn ahahahahhaha. thanks for the filling dinner. though we didn't get to eat mee pok at vista point sigh. next time can go sia. i read harry's blog. i agree with him on his view on depression. but i never said it out cos it would hurt the people around me. perhaps i'm just venting something i've kept inside for too long. depression is just a way u treat a problem. there are other ways. more often than not, i've found myself being influenced by people's depression. i hate that. but still, it happens. it happens when i am weakest. when i am strongest, i pull people out of their depression. or at least i try my best to. depression is really a very potent virus. it's airborne.
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x 8:39 pm
ladida ladida
have not updated for so long already. ironic that i'm more busy during this one week holiday. which isn't anyway. i haven't had time to do any work. everyday's packed. but i made them that way. ha ha ha. i wonder how some hockey ppl had the impression that i liked wendy. erm, sorry but i've never talked to her before. during prac we noticed that the red keeper bag was still intact. so i just wondered why. so i noticed that she was not there. that's it! the next time i suddenly found people asking me if i liked wendy. again, people i know are in hockey but never talked to before. it's so weird la! i don't like her as in that kind of like ya know?!!but i think she's a nice girl lah..kian lin told some of the guys how she will help u do ur chinese work or something. that's nice. aiyoooo how did people think i like her just cos i asked one line of concern. if so i must have liked many many girls already.
as regards to the tagboard thing there..there is really nothing i can do about it! i'm a total computer n00b. maybe i'll change template soon, so keep hoping. hehe. i saw minsi at causeway point today. looked prettier already(as compared to last year :D) yup, so i didn't block you or anyone else...why would i? unless u are guilty of something hehe. we saw mdm ng at causeway point just now! hmm. we had many fanciful ideas about what to do. like go arcade. but couldn't cos we didn't have home clothes. of course going to my house to change was a sensible solution but not too many were keen. so no arcade. then just wanted to go caryn's house there play basketball. but everyone so sian sian. only caryn and i looked genuinely interested. hais. never mind lor. so sad. ended up doing nothing much.
went to pizza hut after econs yesterday. with xavier and shannon. we had this chicken supreme cheesy stuffed crust and hawaiian pan pizza meal with seafood platter and sotd and coke. about 34 bucks.so it worked out to everyone eating 4 slices of pizza. shannon died at the end of the 3rd. well, the 3rd was already a struggle. i reached maximum satisfaction at 2nd slice. 3rd slice was to ensure it was my money's worth. as in enough to make me remember i was there. the 4th was....TORMENTTTTT!!!!!we ran after the bus immediately after that. lots of thanks to xavier. lucky i didn't vomit out that 12 bucks of pizza and crap. went his house. watched him play some dumb whack-the-kiddy game. i guess it's related to the whack-the-elderly game. all on newgrounds. then we went to play pool. xavier mentioned that my pool skills have improved tremendously, leading him to infer i had been practising. but i haven't. the last time i really played pool was 3 months ago already, to say the very least. and i felt i still played the crappy way i always used to play. so i won 1 game while he won the rest. but quite a few were cos i got the black in illegally etc.then he went for his play. so sorry to shannon. cos xavier was playing with me, he had to wait so long for him. then went to meet zhi zhi! ahhh so chio as ever! always love her! had a very funfilled conversation for like 2 hours. well xavier, we did control ourselves. haha. THANKS ah.walked to opposite her house..aiya felt like going to ka jiao renny at his house again. but don't want la. later his family all come out, i si bei pai seh. wa lao that xavier told me that renny and him were in the same primary school, and knew each other since primary 3. then when i asked renny in school today, he replied cheekily, " just cos i didn't tell you, that's why u didn't know right?" wow dots. never knew renny was THIS sort. oh man the cycle is so cool. renny and xavier:ex classmates. renny and hong zhi: neighbours.hong zhi and xavier: og mates. so coollllll!!!on the way back. this middle aged chinese guy with thyroid eyes(goldfish eye or pop out eye) kept staring at me. i was sitting by myself at the back of the bus. he walked to the end of the aisle, then his whole body weight pressed down on the second last rows' 2 seat handles. and STARED AT ME. then he sat down on the left. i was on the right lah. it wasn't long before i noticed something. he STARED AT ME. i thought he was looking at the scenery outside my window. he wasn't. he just STARED AT ME. i was getting very uneasy, and i kept shifting my butt up and down the seat. well, he stared at me at a frequency like, stare 2 sec, look away 1 sec, stare 2 sec, look away 1 sec. it was really freaky. but i would have been very vulnerable had i shown my freaking out. lucky thing was that he got off at the next stop. and when he stood by the door, he STARED AT ME, yet again. and when he got off and walked back to the opposite of my seat, i plucked my courage to look at him. and again, he STARED at me. and this stare must be defined. it is not the ones i usually get. the 'u look as if you're picking a fight' / 'u think u look better than i do'/'i think i will look damn cool when i'm stepping over you' look. basically the damn ah bengs who do that to me ALL THE TIME. but this eccentric stared at me with his eyes popped out. it's very exaggerated. and super freakish haha. he looked like dr octopus in the spiderman comics.but he was uglier. and scarier.just when i thought i was weird. i met my match. i bet it shocked me back to my normal form. haha. i hate being tired. everything just feels so wrong when i am. unconsciously i'm offending people. i'm sorry if i have offended you.(you as in YOU, you $%&@#^) keke. that's it for now. i'm falling sick.
quote which a few hockey guys recite to me:"when he says 'friend', the 'friend' is a girl. when he says 'friends', it means a group of guys." and when i said girl, i meant my sister u dumb hockey toots!!ahhaha. yea and accusations of incest were strewn on the ground. hahaha.
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x 7:49 pm
singapore polytechnic rocks
instead of spending my school holiday to myself, i spent it with janice and my wife. what a good guy i am! saw lotsa stuff! singapore poly rocks. i definitely want to go there again in the future if i have the chance(by not studying, i stand a rather high chance now). then i went to pay a visit to renny. just wanted to say hi, but somehow his entire family came out. erpx. feng zhi discovered his house was the one she so admired cos it was the newest and grandest of all the lkk bungalows there! renny is so so awwwwww.....i'm so jealous! then i went to her house. to get my disc. wah her sis was around. thought she was going to kill me. but fortunately superstar finals was on, so she couldn't be bothered to look at me. phew! her cats were also not bothered to talk to me too. i hope nothing really happens to my wife! cos it's actually my fault if anything happens! anyway, please stop ogling at renny's house. i know it's damn nice and his staircase is see through and his roof is so prominent and his gate and all is everything nice!
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x 11:02 pm