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2 days

well er..i slept at 6 yesterday, and woke up at 10. damn. i thought i would sleep 12 hours. but HELL NO. i was awoken by my mum. indirectly, that is. what i had thought i knew was just the tip of the iceberg. being roused from my slumber by her shrill chattering, i thought it worthy to proceed on my work. it was just like me passing standing board jump. i-m-p-o-s-s-i-b-l-e. i had to sleep at 12.

below is the version, as related by my sis on my blog,but she made it private. somewhat, her feelings correspond to mine. but she's more overt about it. i try to cover them up, and i don't usually get as fired up as my sis. but when i do, different story. u guys don't know about this of course, but I'M GOING THROUGH A ROUGH PATCH NOW. if i ever appear irrational, hope u can understand. i wun become irrational if u all do not step on my toes, swear.

19 May 2005 18:43 PM i hope all these comes to an end . ASAP .congrats if ure readin tis . :)was tryna slp yest nite .but my mom scolded my dad for no apparent reason .UNREASONABLE .of coz my dad maintained his temper . she keeps sayin wad vixen la .hu li jing i mean ..KNS .pls lor . hez juz so innocent . din do anytn rite .said wad gou ying also . ermz . seduce . grrr .not only my dad lor , ive had enuf of her too .my bro also lor . shez juz so . ermz . wad to describe .beyond words la !beyond cure . all she does is rattle n rattle . day in day out .i cant stand it .datz y i`d rather not talk when at hm .once i talk , datz it . blabber all e way .she`ll juz come up wid all sorts of ridiculous stuffs .she went into e rm n came out to continue . DOTZ LOR .all she does is holla .think her voice loud big deal ah huh ?no lor . any1 can project their voice .i kinda slpt alr . n got woke up suddenly . by their huge range of voices . goin to b 11 i think .i was v tired ok !juz felt lik going rite in frt of her , n slap her str8 in her face .anw , early in e morn .i dun wanna tok de lor .but dad juz kept comin into my rm .den i tot hez in a gd mood la . gr8 .when he was bout to leave ,my mom came out of e rm noe ,n started sayin stupid stuffs again .i was so PIST lor . dad juz went out without sayin anytn .wo zhen de shou gou le .tis aint e first tym .if i leave e hse 1 day ,itz only right for me to do so .itz not a conducive envi. for studyin . bullshit la i noe .but i juz hate e sight of em quarrelin hao bu hao .cant she understand how we feel ????NEVER . SELFISH . ARGH .shez juz so irritatin !eat abit ltr also muz nag .keep callin n callin .minmin ~~~~~~ minmin ~~~~~think im deaf ???i hate her voice . dun say im unfilial lor . itz nvr our fault . itz always our parents' fault .for creating us . abort me la !i wouldnt exist . u can juz simply get a divorce ,if u wan it so much .keep blamin my bro n i .coz of us , she struggled on wid her marriage .OH PLZ .i din force u to carry on .hate dad so much ,y marry him ? huh ?divorce la . i wun care much .we dun seem lik a family anm .i juz wan to get over wid tis .how i wish i could get away frm tis life !

but i guess i was still normal. didn't let it show.

my sister's solution would be to run away. mine was more straightforward. jump down for them to see. even now, this act of insanity is constantly being perpetuated in my case of emotional upheavals. but still, i'm one of the few who still say life is beautiful. maybe i am cheating myself, but whenever people say life sucks, it reminds me of my plight. so i cannot stand people repeating 'life sucks' monotonously, perpetually. sooner or later, my head will just burst. combined with all the stress i'm having, but am denying now. i guess i rock as a class rep. i'm so stressed, but i conceal it so well. how well a bluff i can make to myself. but to others can i?

back to the bitchy and himbotic style you all are accustomed to.
mr hong returned the maths test papers today! as usual(=since sec1), i shook my head, and i didn't even need to prepare myself mentally for the horrendous aftermath that was to come. it was maths,after all. failing A maths with f9 for 2 prelims..you could say that made me what i am. indifferent. but a miracle came through today i guess. i passed the test. which was so hard. everyone said(save those scholars who ought to stop posting racist comments and who need to be deported back i tell ya') that the test was tough la. even mr hong said so. that's why i'm especially happy to have passed. and i got second in class?hahahahahaha....i don't even dare dream these kind of dreams, ambitious i occasionally may be. and how much did i get?

15.5/30.

"plak!";
x 8:23 pm

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