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fair play anyone?

my classmates are still great. this wun change,and i'm looking forward to the class outing on saturday. what i did in class, u know. i shan't bother filling u in.

today we all got to the comp lab. charlene tried to go to my blog. and u asked why it was perpetual sorrow, i actually have no idea. many people have told me it sounds girlish, but whatever. yea and the way i stand is the way a girl does. no one ever told me so. erm, do most other girls know that too? i think i haven't had any sorrowful posts so far, and maybe this would be one. so sorry for this.

during hockey, i got to know 1 guy from riverside. his name was kian ling or something. we were playing a minimatch. there was this guy on the opposing team in green pants. (due to my volatile mood now he shall be named 'fucker' for the sake of convenience in this particular post.)
kian ling and i noticed he was the roughest player and also the most unscrupulous one. we two just did not like him at that point of time already. thankfully for the fucker, the session was coming to an end. who knows what would have happened if we had continued the mini match.we two,though just knew each other in a matter of minutes,would be conniving to just run him down(whatever u want to use to kill a person).

then the seniors debriefed and et cetera. most ppl went off after, but some stayed on to play among ourselves. the fucker was in there. so was xavier and marian. he sort of started off rough, but i didn't let impressions take control. maybe it was cos i was always far from him. then yi hong the goalie on my team wanted to swap. so i went for it. within moments of being in action, that fucker was damn close to my post and when he got close enough to shoot the ball, he swung his stick damn hard and high la. i was just in front of him, as in really close. phrase is ' hard and high ' and ' damn close '.

then he struck my fingers, middle and index.

yea and i just shot off stuff like owwww it hurts why must u play so rough it's just a game play more gracefully la. then after that i just walked one side and uttered ci bai.

his reaction?i just did not want to see his face. but all i knew was that no word of apology was being offered. fucking asshole.i would love to tell that to kian ling.
kelvin the only senior there was most probably disgusted with my behaviour cos it would have seemed that i was the one without sportmanship, not the bloody fucker. the other boys would have thought little of me by then already. after that i just cooled down. it's really a long time since i got angry.

what is happening to me.

played on but performed substandardly.

a deep apology to my buddies marian and xavier. they got to see something that i never showed them. yup marian said she didn't believe it. did not believe it was me who did all that. i could not believe it either. guess everyone was thoroughly disturbed. as was in cat high. i'm sure i disturbed some friends before.

maybe it's cos i'm tired. but then my fingers really hurt. they were smashed hard i tell ya. i'm now afraid, cos when such form of violence happens just once, they easily recur. i was so afraid i would smash that fucker the way he did to me too. the thoughts are all too scary. and that's why i'm afraid of myself.

and my some of my classmates (u all rock !!!!) thought i was quite buay song when i made that egoistic speech on 'me' today. i'm showing my displeasure too palpably already. and that's dangerous. i dun like my gp teacher. no one in my class does. she is definitely a zero eq creature. potatohead would score better. she doesn't know how to get popularity with us. after meting out horrendous punishments and setting unrealistic deadlines for the re-submission of mediocre work, the class had a 360 degree change of impression. and she was not even shy to declare that ' i think i'm quite a nice person' after those dictatorial statements (i hear my classmates cheering.....). TARD.

a huge chance that i wouldn't be what i have been all this while this year. but i know my lovable classmates would surely perk me up! they're nice people! and i wun want to disappoint you all!

i'm feeling much better now.i'm still staying in hockey. there would always be one or two out to ruin our day. maybe i am so silly as to let one person tear through my heart.

what a fool you are, dumb ass.

"plak!";
x 9:06 pm

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