yea yea just a few weeks ago on this horrible day i got back my maths and A maths.yea that dunno- if- i- should- have- rejoiced- or- despaired day.happened today also.before i got back my english papers,i already had this deja vu-i would not do as well again....so the prophecy was fulfilled indeed…I had never ever seen such a disappointing result in my summary before. a 10/25 hahaha.4 for content and 6 for both language and own words.heh.i was right all along,rather advising my friends that English is a very unpredictable subject….something like….me?it turned out that I had quite a few of the points,but spent too much time paraphrasing such that the concise meanings could not be brought out anymore.so that was how the unthinkable happened.thanks to choon wee for being there to laugh at the ‘english pro’.seriously I had never been offended for a real long time!but well I smiled it off anyway(i’m still offended haha).a real humbling experience for me,only to be deemed well-deserved.i had it coming…complacency maybe.but then I have taught many that English cannot be studied.maybe it’s time I reviewed my seemingly flawed theory.otherwise “how do u think the china ppl pass el?”(quoted from someone).anyway that was summary only right…we also got back comprehension today.i got 11/25 for comprehension,which is ‘good’ I think.i never go around asking ppl how much they get.i’ll only do that in return when ppl ask me.it is only polite to do so.okie so it shouldn’t have been too bad overall right?no way!last term I also received 11/25 for compre,complimented with a 18/25 in the summary,which I am so ever grateful to.so this time I have to be grateful to it again.indeed.hmph.i’m so glad that our ever-charismatic monitor pun hon gave me words of comfort…so touched.he said that my compo would pull me up.hehe we’ll see!

Anyway that happened after school.during curriculum time another paper was sort of ‘returned’.so it was that the mcq answer slips were returned to us.i had not really fine results in this section and was always so sore about it,so I just couldn’t care how much I got for it.but it occurred that this longtime eyesore of mine some guy in 4-1,he got 18/25…then came over and whined to his friend….wa lao I got 18 only leh”damn if only you witnessed it you could have seen qian xiang and me raising our fists already(literally,had you!).nay it was just that the tension in us was very high…we were taut strings,going to snap anytime soon.we were like going ‘**** off lah,get 18 still complain!’this was just an indication of my lack of confidence in my geography results this time.i already told myself I would be very ecstatic if I had b3 this time…so u know how much I didn’t study.anyway mdm sarifah asked us if we wanted to get back our scripts,or whether we preferred her to just read out the marks,or none of the options above.so obviously she was going to read out the marks,that being the intermediate of the two extreme options.she gave a comment,rather unkind to my class(it’s a mixed class of 4/1 and 4/2 geog students).as usual the triple science ppl would do better,yea yea so she announced that 4/1 had better results,and 4/2 had worse results…except for a few.i had no reaction towards that previous phrase already.N.U.M.B.i didn’t study much,in fact just read the textbook the day before,so I didn’t deserve good grades obviously.yes shuan min whoever you are you’re going to say it’s luck again hehe :P ‘except for a few’ would have given hope to everyone in the class,cos it’s apparent that everyone desires to be ‘the few’.but mdm sarifah lied.she only praised one person in 4/2.damn her it was only one guy who was the exception.so what if it was me?yea it was,but I didn’t really feel happy.dunno why…when people asked me how much I got(they didn’t know who,cos she just read index numbers and their corresponding grades),I just said a pass.it feels better to be humble than proud.up till now I still dunno if any one takes my word seriously;i was so tempted to insert a comma followed by a ‘seriously’ then a full stop.i feel more comfortable wearing so-called homeclothes,than ‘nice’ clothes.okay when I’m going out then only would I wear ‘nice’clothes.good to wear once in a while.likewise it’s good to be proud of yourself once in a while,but not in such quotidian terms.i guess I just couldn’t be proud of myself;what’s the use.anyway I got a2 for geog if u really wanted to know.it was nowhere near the 4/1 top breed.okay but right now I’m using my geog marks as a consolation to my insufferable grief at the defeat of my English papers.i just hope pun hon would be right.

English oral is going to be tomorrow.say,how does one prepare himself/herself?I have no idea.again,proof that I do not study English!oh dear,I’ll just do what you peeps think I can do best-impress the examiners with my linguistic skills.(I remember using ‘lah’ during the prelim orals :D ).just do what I do usually,and the marks will be there for me!yes!the same thing as Chinese orals!they are THERE,and we’re the rightful owners gwahahaha.okay I’ve remembered mr yong kwang hei’s invaluable advice.i still remember the time when mr heng gave us oral practice and while everyone received advice,I didn’t!he told me to shut up “I know you can talk”.okay it wasn’t done in the most polite manner but I know his meaning,he knows that I have no problem in conversation.must not let him down.he’s my idol actually,perhaps due to my horrible experiences with my ex-english teachers.first was teo wen li,who was just busty and bubbly and didn’t like the school environment much,so she’s working for the new paper now.she was damn slack.i still remember English lessons were either ‘go library and do er what?ya whatever u want’ or ‘this house believes in…’ I really hated those days.i hated the speed which the debaters quarrelled in.jealousy perhaps,but I really hated debate.sec 2 I had ms Fernandez…okie she’s really one of the best teachers I had,but she falls second place as mr heng is still the most hardcore(hey I mean hardworking,what u thinking?).she emphasised the composition of journals,and I enjoyed that.it seemed that she did enjoy reading our entries.she’s real understanding.whoever gets her as English teacher would be very lucky too.then last year it was mrs bala.simply hate her.slacks and slacks and slacks,on the pretext of going on some course,and when she does come back,she slacks some more.i remember the ONLY time she went through compre skills with us was after some CA paper which many failed.she was real nervous about it I could see.although mr heng is very moody as we all know;undeniable,well at least he gets us our work done.

These few days while I was supposed to be finishing the maths papers I was just playing empire earth which kc lent me.i had longed to play the game for so long.not that I’m bloodthirsty,but I simply appreciate the evolution and declines of the many many various races on this little rock.i’m only grateful to them(positively and negatively) for shaping the world like this today.if u think I’m lowlife to play that,then I can’t change your opinion sorry.
how many humans have been killed on the battlefield that life is really worthless.i’m always pondering what happens to Singapore in times of war.with so many quitters-to-be,just how many would be willing to take up arms to defend our sovereignity?the typical reaction would be ‘i’m this important person/I studied so much,and now you’re telling me to go die?’and what if this cold war between the united states and china erupts into full blown physical war?Singapore would surely be needed.what happens then?are we (sorry but majority of Singaporeans are Chinese,making it little-china) to fight against china,or our ally all these while we’ve been trying to cling on to?and what of the citizenry during war?are we to shrivel in air-raid shelters during war like 60 years ago?or be like the british?everyone worked hard;men and women hand-in-hand,producing ammunitions,supplies,and other essential war goods.high morale,and they won the battle of Britain.would our nation be able to resist any intrusions?no way.the people here and petty and they don’t care for each other.i’m not being anti anything,but just reporting my observations.i would surely love comments pertaining to these pertinent issues.