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x 2:47 pm
an unforgettable day
today was another day,filled with madness.very memorable,in fact.first period was chinese,so as usual there was to be,in its place,maths lesson,with that china teacher coming to give worksheets.he's quite nice lah,but i'm not.oppps!so i kept making fun of him...maybe not that much lah,made fun as in not in front of him,i'm too wussed to do that.so i started murmuring thank you mr xiao bai lian...then like no fun leh..so i designed a new name hahaha.this guy is sissy from afar(why cat high so unlucky,students like that,teachers also like that?!!!),hence that name.he's real white though hahaha.so aaron was saying sissy....hmmm i thought there were plenty more ways to spell sissy..so i tried this ...Mr Wu Si Si...hahaha he's not a Wu lah....but look carefully....it's a WUSS!with sissy in it hahaha...what else can you expect from a lamer?
then got chemistry...fun sia...i remembered not to light the airhole!yay!i survived another day lol!i was testing for gases in the boiling tube sia..ammonia is so nice(especially when it's handmade by yourself;a certain level of satisfaction ahh)!so obvious lor,i just went to fill up'turns red litmus paper blue'..cheater...then after that the boiling tube was so charred,i didn't think the ganges would wash it clean ever again,so i consulted mr lee lor...he said try adding nitric acid to it...so i tried.OH MY GAWD!it totally worked!it's unbelievable okay....you must try it yourself to experience the amazement...um if really cannot find anything to burn then try (it on) yourself lol...okay that's lame and pathetic;no-one's laughing hahaha...so we came back from the lab(unscathed :D ) and there was english lesson...mr heng came up with a stack of papers,i thought he was going to return it to us,but it was not to be.as usual,mr heng style,he would give another set of practice to do,which was comprehension and summary.thinking it was only one period,he said i want you all to finish till number six.only after i reminded him then he realised it was a double period."okay,then do all,ya,summary also."we were all like -_-" ...but well,if you dun do,you dun improve,right?i always tell that to myself,especially in subjects i favour anyway it was english...and definitely going to be easier than the darned prelim2 paper2 so i did it happily(am i delusional or just optimistic,i've been asking myself and listing relevant examples).after recess,so second half of the day approaches.going to be double maths,but should be alright since it's just transformation.
it was so relaxed cos the topic is not the conventional heavy stuff,so obviously there was a capacity for insanity to erupt here.mrs long was talking about some unorthodox business method pertaining to her part-time job as a muah-chee seller in school so that we can enjoy "chilled CH Jive".erm ya thanks for that,but i rather the profits had gone somewhere else,say the charities like ...NKF?er nonono...they have stocked up too much for a thousand winters,or just donate to the school building fund lah!so extra why in the first place must buy the drink for us to buy so they can earn money.contradixion right?
some people never think,and when they finally get what they are thinking,they can't express it due to their inability to use either English or Chinese in a standard,at least,manner.
oops i went too far off,let's continue.mrs long and the word unorthodox meant that something bad was going to happen.so it did.qian xiang who had been sitting beside me was so moved to say, jian,fourth tone!oh my!mrs long was so shocked...she was like laughing also hahaha cos if she had other emotions it was going to be worse.she said something like that was not the word to describe...hahaha...she didn't know how to react,but anyway you can't just call women jian and get away with it you know...qian xiang is screwed up!but not totally...as he later said something again!i was wondering what he was thinking when all of a sudden he was so quiet and suddenly he raised up his hand and said "Ah Long,can i go toilet?" oh my he did it again!somehow it was subconscious;qian xiang never said such stuff directly...i guess we were talking about gangsters before that,then he was reminded of the 'ah long'.mrs long was shocked again.i spent more time laughing at her reaxion than the actual joke itself...it was that kind of american wide-mouthed gape that certainly looked damn funny.she could even joke about it."only mr terence goh can call me that."i was like,huh,she's so happy about it?mr goh's like 10 years younger at least?so crap...
during the double period,we did a lot of crap,and what we were supposed to do,we didn't.(post-exam slacking syndrome)the class later found out that it was aaron's birthday.i tell ya,it was a big mistake that the classmates now knew;someone's about to be embarrassed,if you've observed enough.as teachers would always do,mrs long asked us to sing him a birthday song.why,yes,of course we were only more than happy to do just that!surely we were going to mess things up!before the count of '3' there were already preludes to the birthday song,and when it officially began,no distinct familiar happy birthday tune was heard.everyone just sang out of tune,which was so damn cool.noise is also a music form you know,that uncoordinated noise would never be repeated again...such a waste...for the clashing chords did make some kind of compromised melody.so many times things have always been done the same way over and over again,this change i saw,well,particularly pleased me.aaron,who was totally embarrassed by the song(s) was lying face-down on the table all the while.poor him...but we enjoyed it!after the offpitch offbeat totally off and hopeless rendition of 'happy birthday' was over,of course we had some other music.such examples include the traditional funeral song used by buddhists(yes the famous one).a few samples were playing in the class then.that was damn funny okay,but i decided to do something more weird...i started singing auld lang syne,and qian xiang joined in too.'isn't that a song used at farewells?' someone inquired....hahaha precisely!not as if i were ignorant about it!
these four years,i've spent the shortest time with class 4-2,but it's the best experience i've ever had.a few cliques here and there,but nobody treats you like a stranger.indeed we do have a class spirit which impressed mr heng,but as he later found out,it encompasses the overall refusal to complete assignments also....haha i've talked too much crap today,but the experience i got today was simply gratifying.sadly,it's going to last for another five months at most.well,i'm going to make the best out of it;i bet no other place would be like this...
oh yes i think we all have dwelled too much on the issues of our parents,seems that it is rather common after all am i rightersay?anyway i can't say i blame anyone,they've both been there for me and still are doing so.let's just say that when they meet with some difficulties,then tension will rise,leading to verbal conflict,and stuff like that.therefore it is essential that we today must make constant efforts to know how to handle stress yea?of course i daresay that my family's problems are based on financial stresses mainly,that's why i must study hard and work hard get good job get good pay good life ahh sounds too easy...anyway i have this little piece of advice from joel : "poverty never lasts three generations".
oh no!i'm the third generation hehe.so it's up to me to break the cycle.
"plak!";
x 3:09 pm
end of exams
Monday- there was this guy,who after the additional maths paper,requested that he search everyone's pencil case.nobody knew what was going on actually,i felt fear,for the teachers had that grave look on their faces.then mr terence goh laughed,for what reason i do not comprehend.i almost went mad.i thought there was some serious offence committed and THIS,the most strict of all,was laughing before my very eyes!i almost went mad...just wanted to be out of that awkward place at that point of time.soon,i noticed this guy walking down the aisles,looking at people's tables and lifting up a calculator for inspection occasionally.so i realised what happened then.obviously this guy lost his calculator to someone who had forgotten to bring it!dumb idiot i want to curse at him!he's in triple science i think,but rather dumb.i passed the verdict the second i realised what he was doing.
"He's never going to find it."not that i stole his calculator anyway,heh i would have gotten myself some smarter brain's one.
haha then when he finished all the rows and columns,he returned empty-handed with a damn cocksure face.damn it,if he were that smart,he wouldn't have lost his calculator heh.if i were in his boots,i would just keep quiet.i mean,the whole hall realised what he was doing,and the result of 4 years of studying together made many people think this way "why can't he accept the fact that he has lost it?i've lost x amount,and i ain't whining;he's just lost one!"indeed he was just wasting our time.we needed the time to discuss that paper you know...while the questions were still fresh in our grey matter...so anti-climatic!
after that i went home,preparing to go back to school for choir again.i had to reach at 3...then i got there,then was told there was no practice.(bear with me)
WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?I CAME HERE ALL THE WAY FROM WOODLANDS AND YOU ARE TELLING ME THAT CHOIR IS CANCELLED????YOU KNOW HOW MUCH TIME THAT IS,TO GET HERE AND RETURN?THIS CCA TOTALLY SUCKS!IT LACKS ORGANISATION!!!
okay i was very pissed off at that time,i admit(rather obvious haha),to the extent that i punched the concrete wall several times very hard...sorry junyang and joel,you had to see me doing that while hoping blood would not be let.it was the sickest joke played on me ever.
Tuesday-supposed to stay at home all day,but some student conductor(only got 1 lar haha) told me there was practice.again the same thing,another sick joke,but it was that the sec4s were mainly not there.only the bigshots were there,and me?an insignificant member of the choir?just plain awkward.but today i got something out of this joke.yesterday's joke was to send me home,today's got me involved at least.so it was that i became the section leader...(only sec4 and senior of some repute),and we combined sectionals with the basses.last time i thought that their section was atrocious due to the china scholars who joined but never knew how to sing.they were horrible!slackers,always arriving late with excuse of english remedial.go fail your english lah!stupid china MANS!only know how to sabotage the choir...so the overall quality of the basses deteoriated damn well,just a while ago the china mans were sacked,gladly.but then basses still suck.i discovered why only today,the sec1s there make a lot of noise whenever they are not singing,and are out to bully their newly-turned gay section leader.this sectional leader,from a manly boy became a sissy girl.god knows his company.so they make tonnes of noise,and my section was with them.it's a sectional you know,and they were only talking,and nobody could settle them down.unlike my tenors,disciplined(most) and only thinking making noise was lame and unproductive.finally some of my guys told me that there was no way they were going to have their sectionals if we were to be with the basses.
"TENORS,MOVE OUT!"
hahaha we left the basses to their despair.
finally vented out my frustrations that came at what time?end of exams?that's real mental hardcore!
anyway thanks for the concern everyone has shown me,it makes me feel appreciated.all started with choon wee who started talking about (the lack of)parental love.i just had to post my experience!luckily they don't quarrel now,should be fine,really.anyway my title read'worst side of them' so i can consider myself lucky already.don't worry,i'm not depressed because of it.i dun think of the unhappy incidents all the time-i rather not.therefore i stay happy hahaha.so sorry if i gave the impression that i just hate my parents or what,it's not.i would not be here if not for them,and they've given more than they could for me and my sister.just when they quarrel,they dunno what's best for their children.that's why i would cry then,to remind them of my existence.
"plak!";
x 4:07 pm
Parents-the worst side of them
i read choon wee's post,and somehow i can emphathise with him.i think i thought about a long time before i chose to post this;it's a great emotional barrier for me you know,but well,i would like to know more about myself,so here i am typing this.
when i was young,i often cried.very over-sensitive to things.always got laughed at by people because of that,so that lengthened the crying.as i grew up,i came to stop crying(means primary school no more already lah haha).but i did cry about 4 times last year,all because my parents were quarreling.why i dare to write all these is because they wun be reading this-they can't.
all this while,i've been keeping all these to myself,i'm so glad i can have this avenue for expression now.
on a typical weekday,fighting would not happen,cos my father usually has overtime,till about 9.30.obviously there is lesser time for a potential fight,cos they go to sleep at about 11 maybe.however my father works whole week,and on weekends comes home by six.that is why i would grow to hate weekends,instead of looking forward to it just like you would.more chances of a fight breaking out.i dun understand why they must quarrel;i get nothing out of it,wait i do get something.i get hurt.for them,it's like,excitement?!adults are constantly craving for this stupid glorification of themselves,and in the past they got this in the form of battles,now it's by criticising family members what the hell.
let us analyse the reasons why they quarrel.the usual case would be that my mother would be reminded of 'something' from the past.she would dig out ALL the unhappy things she experienced before,and usually it's due to my father.what wrong have i done to be caught in this crossfire?i dun even know of the background.i wasn't there,neither do i wish to be there,given a chance.how can i i can't ascertain the facts;the accusations...i can't deem them to be false or true!i can't say who's wrong in front of them...i'm a very soft-spoken person...and usually i don't even dare to talk when they fight...my sis and i would be entrenching ourselves in our rooms...i do not know if she has cried due to that,but no doubt there would be a very deep emotional scar now,right step?anyway my mother will brood over the 'unfair' stuff and verbalise them in a very not nice manner to my father,taunting him to quarrel with her.my father's very tolerant one...it usually takes quite a great effort to force him to his breaking point,that's why i say i would cry about 4 times.if he were not tolerant,i would be crying about 20 times already.
other reasons include accusations of my father siding with our neighbour upstairs,who is always crashing hammers and spanners and other heavy whatnot onto the floor,moreover their floor seems to be untiled..only cement you know!the impact of the objects...simply intolerable!but being the passive me,i always keep the suffering to myself,promising myself not to worry about the noise and hoping for the better..real idealist person...while my mother would just shout all the #$^&@% and you know what?she will do the same thing to the poor neighbour below....really unthinkable.she would say that since the police always never take action when she calls to report the neighbour above,why not she do it to her other neighbour downstairs and let them take the punishment as well?i dunno how she got the impression that my father is siding with the neighbour.indeed she thinks too much,and i can see that genes are inherited,but i develop my thinking positively,however,something i do not believe,still.by right,i should be like her right?but i'm trying to stop this spread of hatred.whenever someone does anything untoward to me,i'll laugh it off,i mean,what's the point of all this vengeance?
i do not know why my mother would be like that, i think she has some very bad childhood memories,that is why.well,so do it.but my memory is quite bad,glad it is,so i will not have memories of that,much...mayhaps...
oh ya you all want to know what happens during a fight and how it's resolved right?here's the summary from heryk's "the dummy's guide to surviving a conflict".
1.accusations thrown at father
2.a small perchance that father will not shrug it off easily,after a long day of hardwork
3.returns comments
4.mum raises already loud voice
5.fight officially begins
6.heryk and his sis evac themselves into their bunkers,sometimes stuffing their ears with earphones
7.all scream no action
8.tension too high,got some action,(eg my mum once threw her beloved money plant on the floor,shattering the glass to shards,and she threw them into the dustbin.i sneaked out to save some of the plants right from the dustbin,a small colony still survives to mark as a memorial)
9.any other applicable act(of aggression) id est, throwing anything they can lay their hands on,slamming the doors very hard
10a.-silence-
10b.neighbours whispering heard;of concern or gossip i dunno
11.father calls mum's family to mediate after mum shuts herself in the door
12.grandmother leads the convoy,then with 2 uncles and their wives(usually it's either one of them),grandfather sometimes
13.they see me cry
14.tell me not to;boys shouldn't.i'm ashamed.it's all i can do.
15.they talk to both of them
16.somewhat the situation is solved,finally
17.they go off (see you next time!i mean,crudely put,they are the ones who will solve the crisis at the end of the day)
18.my parents(either one) come to me with a glass of plain water,giving me instant shock treatment.(try shooting someone,then immediately remove it using surgical procedures as you're a fully qualified surgeon)
*somewhere in the middle i debate over whether i should plunge down 10 floors to end my suffering.so far the good side has won over the bad*
oh god why do they quarrel?luckily the last incident happened about 4 months ago i think.i wish to be still counting the months,years,hopefully.it happened with greater frequency last year.no wonder my studies weren't good at all last year.lucky that is the worst thing about my parents.there's about nothing equivalent to that phew.took me quite a while to overcome my trauma to post this,so i surely hope you have benefitted from reading this dark tale.meanwhile no-one will stop me from being positive towards life.time to move on!but maybe these incidents are why this site is 'perpetualsorrow'?.i have no idea,there's something plucking at my heart...very painful...no idea what it is...
in 8 hours time it would be the A Maths paper,the last one,in fact.i haven't studied much yet...i'm always burning midnight oil hehe.pretty much a zombie,i think i pumped steroids into meself somehow.i'm worried about my results...long while since i passed(though mrs long did say the last one was a tough cookie,getting close to a pass was decent enough already,something which comforted me.it can be cross-referenced by mr leong,who said something like getting 60 was like getting 75 already.hahaha)
after that then it's liberty!!!....or is it not?well there's going to be choir the whole week leading up to the concert,Aug 1.i'm going to be real positive about it...though obviously i'm going there to suffer...
smile anyway! :)
*big fat grin*
"plak!";
x 3:22 pm
general talk(crap-talk)
hehe I was too lazy to update yesterday’s entry...or was it? nah,I was already tired by yesterday it’s the prelims what..normal to be tired I guess….oh ya ..before I was tired I was playing the comp till six….i was playing starcraft again haha…so at six I decided to go sleep,intending to wake up at ten or maybe earlier to do my revision for chemistry and history…I did wake up at 10…but nobody got me up for long,thus I fell back on my bed,sleeping haha(what about my revision?!).to my surprise I woke up at 2 am gosh, and thought of sleeping till 4 before I woke and studied for the papers in the morn…but I knew that wouldn’t help much,so I decided to study anyway.i must have been mad…waking up at 2 hahaha…anyway I studied all the way till five.note that the author did not take his dinner,so by three am he was already dying of his hunger hahaha. All my hopes pinned down on the fridge,I began the journey there,hoping to scavenge what little would be there for me….so I found nothing really solid…some soya bean milk which my mum made ,and saw 2 quarters of almond jelly,taking 1 piece.no way these could be swapped for dinner,but I made do with them,and continued studying.the night(morning?) was very quiet,and although I usually welcomed silence,this was not the time I did hehehe….so I had my walkman with me(read:outdated mountain tortoise) and stuffed some classical music cassettes in them….what else hahaha….although I know my mum has a collection of the damn orbit music about 10 times that of mine,I just dun touch them haha I dun like mah…then this time the player did not play the notes I had expected as well,becoming rather flat….it’s the worst insult to me you know!the music was flat….damn sickening….i wondered how the musicians made a living if they really played such horrendous music…then I stuffed other cassettes after thinking that particular one was spoilt…but it wasn’t.so I changed the batteries hahaha…stupid boy….and that was the story of how I survived studying in the weeeee hours of the morning,when everyone was asleep(unless some china scholar mugger also was rushing through his revision) haha.ding ding ding ding ding ding ding ding ding!(sing the infectious tune hehehe)
at five I slept,till six haha.better not sleep,where’s the difference right?NO!I was already very exhausted at five….didn’t know if I could still wake up at six but my father did accomplish that for me :D.then I studied chemistry on the mrt haha….just browsing through….anyway I didn’t do the past year mcqs as I had been instructed,but well I found the paper to be such a breeze(again emphasis must be placed on the non-existence of a relationship concerning the author’s feel of the difficulty and the ACTUAL difficulty,hence the marks predicted are most likely to be exaggerated figures blown out of proportion).i feel as if I’m going to get A1 you know!(erm you read the previous brackets right?)it was damn easy lor…..even someone who doesn’t practise the questions can say it’s damn easy….but my friends who did the past years just copied and pasted the appropriate answers in it,thus doing lesser work then me.okay lor I predict I’ll get A2 lah…..at most.
Then after that was history elective.stupid lah….spot so many questions already,all never come out(well it was my teacher who did,I’m just so lazy to even spot questions hahaha…I’m better off using my brains like in starcraft….lol).but everyone does remember after the spotting that he said one thing”I warn you all again spotting the questions” amongst all things he said only this was right.so stupid lah….the studying from 2 to 5 right….i studied all the topics around the questions….where it came out to be how stalin won the political struggle,I read how collectivisation and five year plans work.then as for Hitler…..what was the question again?er…I forgot what already,cos they dun let us take home the papers(“so dumb right?”a few always say).heck lar….over already.er I think I’ll get c6 for this lor…but it’s going to be even worse if I get a red mark..
Oh my god(there isn't any god to me,personally)i had heard all the stupidest stuff these few days.while doing the geog paper,there was the map reading questions…so one of them involved finding the length of a curvy road.obviously you had to use a thread,or SOMETHING to measure right?my friend related to me how the guy sitting next to him was twirling his hair,twirling and twirling non-stop when suddenly a specimen of hair would be detached,and then he used it as the perfect substitute for the string to finish his question.it’s so like……I’ve nothing to say hahahaha.fill in the adjectives yourself.i’m giving you space here:
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(meanwhile i adopted the much more practical solution of measuring the chunks of straight lines,and found that the answer matched with those who had the string with them hehehe.)
Then there was this guy who had been affected to a certain extent by a change in the way fails were represented.the conventional red ink was now replaced by the black underline.tis guy got seven of them,and showed off to his mother “ I passed 7 subjects and failed one leh!!” oh my since when would this happen hahaha so lame…
i always do my entry for the 'day' after 12 am .forgive me please,that's when i have the mood.hahaha at least i achieved something today..i persuaded choon wee to do a blog too,on the pretext that it would help improve anglais,but seeing the nonsensical language here,it's not going to work for many people,oh no.i figured out i've been too serious usually,so pardon me for using colloquial stuff here cananot?
"plak!";
x 3:31 pm
battlefield reports
yesterday was social studies..should be quite fine,since nobody was sighing after that,which was quite rare...somehow mr danny tan and ms chan hinted to us people lah haha...so we knew what was to be expected lol....not that i noticed anyway,damn!but i did study lah..so somehow should be able to pass lor....hopefully at least a b3.
today two papers,maths paper 1 and physics.prior to that,i was lastminute crash-coursing from 12 to 2 am...hahaha....slept 4 hours,therefore i'm just a reanimated zombie,i haven't got my sleep yet..maybe friday then hahaha.....maths today very easy leh...although i dunno why many dun agree with me..so i kept mum about my thoughts about the difficulty,to not to incur the wrath of a few.maybe shouldn't talk too much lah..last time say easy then come back with a pass lol.....hope history wun repeat itself.that smartass feeling was so good especially after finding out that you got most of the answers right for all the tougher cookies hehe.choon wee the maths pro praised me steady leh...but my maths actually very lousy de...that's why i go tuition lol.hope i didn't disappoint myself after 4 years of it.
then afterwards physics sia....haha i almost slept when i started doing section B leh..dun believe it....then forced myself to stay awake and do although it was never interesting haha...dunno what to say about that..i just did all the questions.....dun even know if i did them right...at least i could finish them as in i knew how to go about them hahaha.
then after that i had to listen to this friend repeating his complaints for about 4 hours non-stop lor...like cha bor like that one...can't stand him sometimes...i mean,what do i say to him?even if i do proffer my advice,do i repeat it everytime he whines?grrr he just makes me feel so frustrated!if he wants to fail and think it's the end of the world,he should just keep it to himself!dun let the rest suffer his sorrow with him too!i've never been so irritated before!
*tears hair apart*
tmr got geog leh...again it's the same dilemma as the english pro situation.i have to do well sigh...but the topics tested tomorrow are my weakest...damn...no more weathering and destruction(which is my specialty :D ).it's all the pure mugging stuff....no way i can use my horse sense to figure out logic already...oh no!then there's the super conglomerated industrial chapters...dunno where to start!so big and confusing sia....how to study for that.... tmr maths paper 2 also...i refuse to practise that for it is no point doing that now....what i know i would know,what i don't it's my fault and i'll just keep on blaming myself!
never mind,just a few more days to go,i will survive!
"The more i learn,the more i forget
the more i forget,the more i do not know
so the more you learn,the more you do not know
therefore,why learn?"
i learn for my insatiable appetite of knowledge hehe.these few days i've been at an high-time lameness haha....
"plak!";
x 2:59 pm
high failure rates for english
paper 1 today.so it began with functional for meself.there was this source given about this parent complaining about his son not enjoying the necessary amounts of physical freedom in the school's pe facilities.so we were told to write our comments.wth it was unlike any other that we have done before,but well no use whining,i still had to do it anyway...though i didn't really know how to.....
then after that i did the essay...an exposition once again,my favourite,where it was all general knowledge being written out.the topic was 'colours'.sounds simple yea...but difficulty is only relative to each individual.so i thought it was a fun topic to write on,rather then the rest which included 'some meal that went wrong' or on the debate between the p's and q's of the handphone.a similar report was on the new paper a few days ago my friend told me but even if i had read it i would not have chosen it.i like variety,and a world filled with colours hahaha....so i just talked about everything i knew....from the usage of royal colours,heraldry,to modern day acidity indicators,traffic lights,use in art,emotions,language...should be enough.no,but i mean,i think i wrote more then 500 words,which means that after that the words no longer count...so die lol.
paper 2 was thought by me to be tough,especially after racking my brains to complete paper 1.but that sentiment was a shared one;there were a few who refused to comment on the difficulty of the paper(they're arrogant bitches) who obviously thought they were to get full marks.however,i do think it IS the WORST comprehension passage ever.about 2 times worse than the theatre passage we did in school some time back.before it all started this guy even told me this time everything was going to be easier....yea right!cos last time many didn't do well what...seems that it's the same this time.summary....hmmm i do hope i get about 13 points,but that would be the most i get-i counted about 17 points to choose from,a similar situation as initiated in prelim 1 ...the passage had only sixteen(yes 16 count'em!) points for us to choose from.
a smooth trip to hell i should say the morn was.at least my repulsive intuition was confirmed,and i was no longer disturbed by it.
after that i headed straight to the library.read all the ss content(reading and memorizing is different) while joking every few minutes,so that explains why i was reading rather than memorizing.i dun even know the skills to do the ss questions i'm so ashamed to say,for it was never incised into my mind by mdm cmc.just went through briefly.ah well i could only wish for the better since the prelims started on a bad note.
i call this whole damn screwed up prelim two a lethal injection.it's going to be over soon,but i'll be dead by then.but with all the hopes on me,i should try to say nothing of my sorrow;for it only helps in the negative sense.
so on i go,to fight another day.
"plak!";
x 2:59 pm
it is come.
the whole day was very relaxing, playing starcraft before prelim2 leh....i'm mad lah....tomorrow it would be anglais, my favourite yet most feared subject,let me find out why.see,prelim1 i got highest in class,61 only,but before that people already started calling me english pro...it's actually damn disturbing for a low-profile person like me,and after all,nobody called me any pro before.which means i am EXPECTED to do as well,if not better.so if tomorrow i fail to perform to that standard then people will curse me...i'd be so ashamed haha.
HECK!I'm going out there to claim my throne!lament only after defeat is certain!hehe this is not the time to lament.
good luck to all my fellow classmates,i wish it to be a smooth-sailing trip.(i didn't specify to where though.suggested vocabulary: hell,back home,heaven,landing on the ground with a splat while storing gargantuan amounts of (gravitational) potential energy)
er okay i go study how to do functional now already...only study that about four times every year lol.
may everyone pass english this time round aye!
(then the other subjects everyone can pray for me already:D)
"plak!";
x 3:35 pm
perspective
studied all day,if not spent time catching up with my friends,well quite rare i suppose,but again i'm improving in this area.right after that i went tuition.while people think i'm mad,it's just about nothing to me.not to mention skipping meals happily.somehow i love the feeling of that hunger cutting me from inside...enough of radical ideas hahaha...must learn to relax.
so i played starcraft.there's this sickening campaign mission that i had restarted about 6 times and still could not win!so i looked at the objectives again.it did not require decimation of entire bases,but some specific facilities.unfortunately this square block just wanted to weaken and destroy all supporting enemy regiments so that the objectives could then be 'accomplished with frictionless ease'.somehow it was when i was sick of restarting that i really got into wanting to finish the mission right.
it was that simple,i just had to look at the problem from another perspective.that being done,then i won the game.
often a solution would be achieved much more quickly if more thought was placed on understanding the problem.not just by looking at the direct (anticipated) consequences.
with the prelims drawing near(they do draw near three times in a year)i can't believe i still am sane.maybe after this no longer.oh ya i somehow found the somewhat complete way to remember the reactivity series...
*restricted to boys of catholic high only*
--just a joke--
please stop caressing my ass,zalinah.i totally love horny chinese sluts(gosh!)
>>>>>and then i discovered i'm sane no longer :D
"plak!";
x 2:52 pm
Nonstop hilarious fun
Well today we were all so pumped up and motivated sia...prelim 2 on monday only leh hahaha..then how to destress?Go mad!4/2 did it...i went mad everyday these few days...just about anything is laughable...lame jokes...misfortunes...sarcasm...hehehe.full day filled with silly jokes i found it to be.
Assembly.Right after the National Anthem was sung,the idiot shouted the command.seems right?think again.DOH!the bloke forgot the national pledge!and subsequently the school vision(this part got or no got never mind,it's a vision to look at).stupid.so i was right on my first post that catholic high was(still is) on a decline.
A teacher(not to be mentioned):While i was young i thought that what my teacher said to me,did not make sense.A classmate:Same here.somewhere another guy said "psst!psst! especially.... hahahaha"hehe why mr tan everytime kena suan by us.he's such a good teacher, just that he doesn't come to lessons as punctual as other teachers,returns our papers at least 1 month later than conventional teachers..... nah he's such a nice guy(and talented dancer i found out on youth day celebrations).i just wish all these complaints against him will stop.getting stale hahaha....
i just loved it when the whole class laughed together uncontrollably...that nice warm feeling that i have not relished for a long time... though i was damn tired from all my 5 hour daily sleeptime...somehow i was revitalised from time to time though my head ought to have dropped flat on the desk.i think rejuvenated by my insanity.yea it is.
form teacher:to find sum of the total interior angles of a polygon,you take (n-2)180 degrees.Student:Then what about monogon?(Thanks to Joel for this one!)
then today i discovered my form teacher was a lame joker.REally!only today then i know.some guy ask why she 'running' around (referring to jumping chapters while doing the super condensed summary of maths).then she said she was not 'running',but rather,'walking'!what the hell is wrong with her?but these few days she has been sick yet still come to teach us sobs sobs.mrs long is acting up weird...i hope nothing is wrong with her.though i dun believe in any gods,but just pray that she's going to be alright soon.meanwhile i'll have to endure that deep bassy voice she uses nowadays(real scary).all my fault!haven't been doing her homework....i must not let her down...nor myself.i hope the reason why she's been such so eccentric is not because of marriage problems.i would hate to hear that.
i should say i fear for my english...it's so unpredictable come to think of it.choose the wrong topic and you're poofed.moreover everyone i know has high expectations towards my english sia...how i wish i was just like everyone else in english grades...damn tiu lian lor if i flunk this time.haiz i didn't ask to be called an english pro...they made me one...hope it's not going to negate any previous joy linked with the title.
come to think of it,i've been smiling all the time today.that's good.(making a hell lot of noises in the public library too).i've experienced the joy of being in the company of other fellow humans today.not the clique types but just a close-knitted bunch of friends...that's enough to be stripped of the anti social tag right?anyway i dun think having many friends is a good idea,cos it's just shallow acquaintances...no point.better to have a few knowing ur heart than plenty knowing your jovial radiant face. so ppl who 'socialise',i don't know what to say.
should not pass judgment it's bad. i should return to my study..let's see..reactivity series huh...start from top...potassium,sodium,calcium,magnesium,alumninium....like that how to memorise?oh yes i'll use the method my friend taught me....PLEASE STOP CUDDLING MY ASS!!!
"plak!";
x 12:43 am
initiated!
my first attempt at this blog stuff.i only know how to play games leh,what you expect...not much lar huh?hahaha...
today assembly was damn lame lar...dumb sec1s anyhow clap...any break in the music then they started clapping...lame lor...haiz...cat high is on rapid decline liao lar...(started with my cohort :P
then after that went to woodlands library last minute study haiz...go there teach friend geog,then he teach me magnetic flux...the solenoid goes in and out...he was doing the action..then the other guy started laughing.okay we know why already stop.
went home never do homework just play computer lor...then sitting here dunno why doing this..out of interest maybe?
"plak!";
x 2:25 pm